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Perhaps I have to excuse all no exception then only I can forget me. Let me find out.

means axis of planet earth. this physically points to Pole star. there is no rotation in Pole. it is still. can we have a geostationary satellite. rather two - one in north pole and the other in south. season dont change. six months long day and six months long night. summer is day and winter is night. about 30 miles diameter at the poles the temperature varies from -50 degree to 0 degree celsius. about 5 degree slanting of axis of orbiting earth makes differential temperature although core of the earth still is molten and causes earth's north south magnetic poles. magnetic axis is not aligned to orbiting axis. I am told they even may change polarity. North becoming south and south becoming north. Do other planets too are similar to earth. My knowledge is limited. I have not made these experiments with magnetic needle in red mars. http://www.planetary.org/blogs/emily-lakdawalla/2008/1710.html In this article I am told that southern half of mars is magnetic and not so the norther...

when all is me nothing but me ~ I cannot be for or against. I cannot be neutral. .... I cannot be a word or meaning or sound or reference .... any or anything I know. I cannot object complain stay or go ... I cannot be present ....feel sense think ....understand. I am and I cannot be one and not other. ..... I am cause and I am suffering. I am bug bugging me. I am lion eating me am lamb. i cannot be either and i cannot be neither i am not awake i am not sleep i am not dream i am not terrestrial i am not celestial i am not space i am not empty i am not nothing ..... can I be bothered by people and their talks or writings or thoughts? can I be bothered by any? can i be bothered about any event or happening? can I be bothered my past events? can I be bothered about me? .... Is there anything more to know about me? what is me? who is me? what is my future? ..... I have no future. I am not seeking from my existence in terra or after terra or before terra o...

US based investment companies initially put off by Khashoggi killing and MBS hand in them are softening their stand. King is old but his young son has support of 60% Saudis and in various major suggesting there is no more of profitable land than SA to invest. Why they really invest one year ago before emergence of MBS? Finance itself is a dirty territory of thieves and thugs. Over centuries we have seen only malpractices in financial world with active patronage of Politicians. Press also predicts this time correctly that US congress shall not intervene with some sanctions. But bonhomie with NK Kim and SA MBS or Egypt military government is not solution for world peace. US is directly involved and it is costing business practices within US itself. We have very volatile Wall Street. Last one year gain has wiped out in one week. If the investment is done in middle east - we shall be seeing many billionaires with trillions wiped out in days. We already have 5 trillions dollar internet toy...

I have to hear bear view and sense - all comments and expressions surrounding me always and now. I am unable to filter stop or postpone perceiving - never. After perceiving, I cannot even forget or stop acting. My innocence is lost forever. forever i am driven by my memories. I am eternally suffering in joyless dark hell hole of knowledge without freshness relief and light of now All is me. Hell is me. I pray for alzheimer. I cannot bear the burden of my knowledge and it is forever increasing. I beg for my innocence. I beg for relief.

I understand all is me including all that hurts me. I am not judge to judge any one's action my values. No one is there to prevent me to judge others and propagate my values. I am guilty of judging others. I cannot even prevent me to impose my values upon me and impose burden of guilt and suffering. my guilt of my knowledge. I do not enjoy my suffering. My suffering is me and I bear - I have to bear. there is none to share my burden of unbearable. 

I am not happy about me. but i have to tolerate my unhappiness without further show. and in case I do show I must not be unhappy about the same. for I do not control me and my reactions I have no means. I am not the standard. I am trying hard to align myself to the standard and I am failing. I have to accept without choice that I shall never be happy ever. I am unhappier trying trying to be happy. I can not be zero. I cannot be positive. I have to be positive about me of being negative always. I have no choice. I wish I had a choice. I am forever stumped by my creator and denied my pleasure.

I often get a dream that I am lost in unknown and I have no sense of direction north east west or east there absence of time of day or night. I am there but I am in unknown. I do not know how to reach any place known to me. It is coordinate problem. In the dream I have no idea I am and I have no satellite given coordinates. I am among ancients who do not know of existence of any place other than where they are. I get the picture. Since I do not dream out of my own choice but shown by someone who is my Fixed Coordinate. It is immaterial what is the system - euclidean or non-euclidean. I am not going anywhere. I cannot go anywhere. My known past has disappeared. I am Alzheimer. Permanente. Absolute.

it never occur to me there is no depth in universe whatever one touches that vanishes knowledge of one's disability know is the final knowledge i read a bangladeshi bengali book thinking i would know about living and thinking of bengalis there. every unthinkable is thinkable there. i saw my shortcomings. joya told me zinia got a job in infosys at california. everything is possible in US too. Trump is President. Kushner runs the foreign policy. zinia started studying cse in osu. after 3 months i came to know she was doing microbiology or zoology. she barely got through her bs. i talked to some indian in osu cancer research and she got a job. she changed job in same osu cancer research three times. last year she did ms in medical administration. she was doing one week courses here and there in big data and some data analysis. she was fascinated with IT apparently since she learnt that no education required for IT jobs from her successful Indian friends and family acquain...

given the circumstances that I have no control and doing non stop compelled by the so called creator of mine and I never know ~ i am a helpless hope victim without choice. nobody may accept what I am doing but I have to accept my inability and disability to even comprehend what I am thinking talking or doing. I cannot escape while I must accept even if I am shouting raving mad. even if none excuses me I am without option and compelled to excuse me. What is intolerable? Why I should care for anyone or anything or any event any thought any deed any action any event whoever is responsible including me? Can I not care? Any caring or not caring is not done by me. Nothing can happen in my world, nothing is going to happen in my world, nothing happened in my world without Him doing the same - all is always done by the creator 100%. He is root of all perceived events ever since the world was born. I am as I am - senseless dead idiot and absent. I was so in the past. I am so in pre...

can I use statistics for prediction for immediate future? No way. We have words such as Level of confidence and probability distribution for variable random whose outcome we like to predict from observations. Whatever be it - I am not very confident. We have theorems such as Central Limit Theorem. X all independent real random variable and their observations are x1, x2, ... xn then their average is going to be Normal eventually. We also have another theorem which states a random variable X is characterized by by a function Expectation ( e ^ (itX)). Machine learning or machine predictions are limited by the above. You believe it or not. We can do no better but estimate our predictions doing some error analysis of our predictions. That too is random variable that is a bell shaped curve we know as Normal. How many miles an aeroplane might fly to be regarded as passenger worthy given the production line makes all similar aircraft is under total quality inspections of the mat...

words I speak or publish is my exposure of my dirty self. I cannot keep myself quiet. I publish my lack of control. And I don't wish to. I wish to achieve the control over my thought and not to think whenever I wish the same. 'I don't  think till tomorrow no matter what or who is my future' ~ for example. Or, I do not like to think no further than whatever I thought, till Sun is set ~ an example. I am tired of thinking for others what ever thinking or planning for my future including almighty God or Devil .... or my family and their extended family. My action plan is simple 'No Action' Even When I am intimated in advance my events and alternatives to avoid or change event. It is idiotic of me to attempt to change my future or try to predict my future in advance in order to be prepared from my past or present.  It is mathematical TRUTH   that future is neither foreseeable nor creatable in any way. NO STUDIES SHALL YIELD ANY POSITIVE RESULT.

Long ago before I was even conceived, i was composed from birth to death and I am seeing thinking doing accordingly. I sought independence and freedom. But I have none. It is impossible to show who I am. My silence is my only show of me. Unfortunately that power I shall not have ever. I have no control.  I am victim without choice but the who is not. I have to think without choice evil thoughts of others along with mine. I have to assume none knows or seeing again without choice. what a cast of illusion! I am drugged there is not an iota of sanity. I thoroughly hopeless. moments after moments life after life. This situation never ever going to change.

today i am free. I have closed all my pending activities. I pushed all urgencies to tomorrow. Not accepting any appointments unless paid in advance. I am free until I am paid. A passing thought how about being double of MBS. I do not think without being paid. Now I already have money nearly $1 trillion USD. I am only 33 years old. Such dream do not last long even if I have someone who is in my pocket and that someone has nuclear missile secret code briefcase to destroy the world. I have wiped away JK without a trace but world over fake news writers are writing fake news every minute for wiping away a fake news writer. Can I bothered. No. I am busy. I just bought Manchester united for $5 billion. I have ordered $126 billion war merchandise from Kushner. I shall own Tesler for .... trump kushner depending on me clean their debt so that they can ruin US and they may not be there long I am busy spending money buying and making SA happy today. I hang Don't Disturb sign on my ...

I have postponed all doing learning thinking talking explaining for some future time when I am free; I engage myself with activity only when I am paid in advance. All urgencies plans cures pendings deliveries blogs promises and improvements have to wait for tomorrow with no commitment. All pending and promises and already past due is not due today; no query replied or answered today. Past is no longer supported. Future orders are entertained only when paid in advance. I am happy being not busy. I am fully occupied today being idle and enjoying my happiness. I am not making any appointment today.

five words i use 90% times are 'me' 'silence' 'happiness' and 'divine'. they all mean same my inability. Had I been able I would not write. However I am better today than yesterday. I am able to push my dissatisfaction to tomorrow. car detailing job I pushed successfully to next year summer. I saw some pencil marks on the wall of my room I push any action indefinitely in future. My wife my children again started some talks but I push my curiosity to understand to future. I do not attending now. I am sort of success temporarily. I do not have to know earn or be unhealthy or unhappy right now. I am able to postpone my actions to eliminate them today. they are not important. I need not use words today.

what I think is not important. I think india is only one person's mistake. Gandhi. He did wish to rule by proxy but unfortunately he was undone by Godsey courtesy ancestor of bjp. It was beginning of present time started before so called freedom and our own ethnik rule 5000 years old as in Mahabharat लूट मर मजमे  गरीबी हटाओ corruption हटाओ अच्छे दिन आएगा 

I have an inexhaustible resource. I know it is my future. I had some incomplete work on my car. It is now about 50 degrees and I conveniently postponed it to next summer if I ever visit. I am looking for assignments in my terms. It have postponed it my next birth. I am looking for companion who is as clean and as good as Cole or cicilia with whom I can spend endless time without any strain. Them I love and respect and relationship. I belong to such beautiful group of people. I have left for such companions to my next life. I have long list of people or similar people I have memorized them in my forgettable store called akashik records. so that I stay from them forever and ever in future. I also have a wish for future. After my death I shall be sent a pure soul like Cole to pick me up for my next journey. Cicilia already left and Cole may not last long into next year. My heart breaks thinking about it. I have to swallow hard to digest grif from loneliness. if I fail to be...

there are some theories of birth it is needed to justify one's existence having written his last theory of universe stephen hawking disappeared but he has left behind his daughter who is making her theories and being reported I read head lines and start writing thank heaven none reads me somehow I reach Akasha the empty space always in my terrestrial existence People do think about disappearance even those who wants leave behind their legacy of thoughts they thoughts we have theory of black which consumes even light which some very bright earthlings thought undestroyable and travel indefinitely million billion trillions light years I alone ask where the go? Is there any place to go except earth and report that gets written permanently in google to be searched by me and I scream at pain ....  unless one steals money that is unless money disappears it cannot appear in billions in some persons purse America is the only country in terra where they can live eternally in ...

I have unsubscribed to all thoughts emails urgencies actions memberships language ethnicity country social security and groups ~ I do not respond or open any arrivals for this lifetime ~ I have lost my identity coordinates address userid password ... absent untraceable unidentifiable unreachable untouchable dead extinct deleted no memories no ash no remainder no witting no future কেও কিছু বলবেনা বললেও শুনবনা শুনলেও বুঝবোনা বুঝলেও ভাববোনা ভাবলেও বলবোনা বললেও কেও শুনবেনা কেও নেই কিছু নেই দেখা শোনা ধরা ছোঁয়ার নাগালের বাইরে ভালো বাসা মরে গেছে আকাশেও নেই আকাশ কিছু ধরে রাখতে পারেনা আকাশের কোনো ক্ষমতা নেই এটাই আকাশের একমাত্র ক্ষমতা

Know our president who made America Great https://www.aljazeera.com/indepth/opinion/fake-investigations-kavanaugh-mbs-181020095102285.html

Suppose I promise myself and keep the promise for all time to come that I am not going to open any email or mail from now onwards. never again. What is the outcome? What is anybody's reaction? Does anyone find out? I would not know who all is trying to inform and what. who still think I am live and kicking. A part of my world significantly closes for me. I cannot speculate. Do all these communication matter? Am I wise or fool? What happens I stop reading News from now on? Lot of stress on my brain for thinking about the status of my world shall not be thought. As a resident on my world I shall remain resident in an island with open sky with no possibilities and no waves! I pay about $150 every month for medical benefits that I have not availed and in my conscious choice I would not avail my last serious visit was in 1977 when I was having fever three times day. My Body without any medicine has to live and adjust accordingly unless I lose consciousness. And I am found out...

Only few days back we got another lower limit when we had another supreme court judge with questionable honesty and character. Hunger manifestation. Trump is president of USA. He showed no improve in his character. We had a lower limit that he would not stop at nothing as long as he gets somehow benefitted. Unlimited Hunger to view. He is further assisted by all his family. Whitehouse is comparable and lower than house of saud now ruled by 33 year old by proxy. He is yet to declare himself King but does it matter? I have no option but believe in God and accept my inability to understand creator's motive by destroying unselfishness as value we accept as divine. I have to accept bad and not talk about it. far too many indigestible to consume. do i have an option to remain public bearing unbearable people who are supposed to be my siblings born off same creator. I have already abandoned the same. Even in my own house I no longer communicate or remain in hearing distance fro...

Every morning I wake up. I have some uneasiness. I do not any more wish but I bear it for several hours. I take some juice some food and try to get back to my world. nights are long for me. I easily cross 3 am till I decide to call off. days and nights are losing temperature quickly. it also rains. I am also not going for neighborhood tour cycling. It is windy. I got some more episodes of Parts Unknown and I am seeing them every night. I have stopped phoning my Indian acquaintances. Those veins have died. I get too easily put off. Shankara lived 32 years and then disappeared forever but did so much. I have already lived 68 years but I have done so little. Today I saw  abc tv program on first lady. it was uninteresting. I have not seen any person with whom I would like to spend few hours not necessarily talking. I am very disappointed with my family. I even avoid looking at them or go near. I am afraid I would hear some thing that I would not be able to digest for many days.....

problem is me solution is my absence I know it is impossible to compromise with false I simply cannot be one of them I silent ~ my voice against noise of falsehood ~ I have to be silent

it is unbelievable how still ibm is in business. one reason of course is its clout in financial world and its root in MF. But then that leads IBM in competition with 1 million IT personnel from India alone. In order to be relevant outside mainframe business IBM is about 2% in new technology infrastructure such as Cloud dominated by Amazon and Microsoft. Worse it is unimaginable that IBM has no longer carry technology depth. IBM has no original product of their own in last 10-15 years. Java took world lead. Now it is javascript. IBM is nowhere in picture. For a while after acquiring DataPower it looked IBM was stable in integration field. But it is losing stream. My personal Experience with IBM isd the lack of technical depth at IBM. All the technologies it acquired from outside are discrete attempt and not market leadership. IBM BPM, IBM ODM etc are just not making any impact. IBM Global services cannot deliver any solution in time using these technologies. It is repulsive to meet...

I lived nearby and long ago. I loved the people I met on daily basis. they were friendly social helping and loving people. The place was Bahrain. It is about 10 miles away from southy shore. My innocence had something to do with my living there and among friends. I am not presumptive and not expecting. I naturally withdraw whenever I see hostile atmosphere. Long ago I knew myself to be very rare. what everybody thinks normal - I do not think so. There are some threshold I shall not cross no matter what. There were tortures I heard of. It is not acceptable to me. Stoned to death.Killing and taboo for expression love or candor is unacceptable. But it is not acceptable to see a country as a whole deteriorated so much as saudi arabia. 33 old crown prince forcibly is default king and calling shots inside and outside. it is also unacceptable limits our president trump trampling. It is very bad combination kushner trump and mbs bonhomie. https://www.nytimes.com/2018/10/16/opinion/jare...

A recluse is fed up after many years of stubborn tries - unable to meditate. He tried everything imaginable. Fastening eyes plugging ears holding breath standing on one leg looking at sky. He tried all who ever suggested whatever. He was unable to hold his attention to any fixed point. He was suggested that Sultan may know. The recluse came to Sultan. Sultan was in his majlis enjoying evening pleasures from sin ~ saki sura and saurav recluse waited for Sultan's attention and about gave up and started leaving. Sultan sent a messenger to call him back. "what made you come here?" "I made a mistake. I was told that you may know how to hold my attention. I am unable to meditate. But of course I am misled. you are deep in pleasures of sin" "no you have come to right place" .  Sultan called some person and asked him to provide recluse the royal treatment. "I shall talk to you tomorrow morning at my darbar after you have had a good night...

I view an object ~ me or any of my worry. case: It causes memories. I view my memories till I do not remember. If it is very long memory. I may postpone the viewing. case: It causes curiosity. I view my curiosity till I am not curious.  case: It is attractive. I view the attractions till I am not attracted. case: It is repulsive. I view the repulsion till I am not repulsed. case: It is necessity. I view the necessity till it is not necessary. I do not move or act. I view the object till it disappears. Time is not important. I have unlimited time available now and I do not have to move or act in order to remove any object occupying my attention. In my world I am the sole ruler - not any god not any devil not my death not my love not my hate not my pain not my illness not my necessity not my honor not my discomfort not my slavery not my knowledge not my belief not my body not my life not my ..... Can absent be law? Can I rule? Can I be ruled? Can I worr...

given an opportunity he is in my room He has his chair and likes to sit there He does not talk but has intelligence to follow technology He loves technology His preference is intelligent mobile phones next remote controls - phones TV etc Laptop anything that is sophisticated and operable He can draw with pencil and paper but not interested in alphabets or numbers he is very interested to play with me and would invite me to play with him and enjoys activity yesterday I was busy with something and did not notice what he was doing he was playing with remote phone and its base suddenly a phone call came it was making hell of a noise I found myself shouting at him without control asked him leave at once he started yelling and crying non-stop he is very angry with me i tried pacifying him i went and sat at his play corner but he did not come i took out special toys and started playing with them robot elephant fighter aircraft he craned his neck to see he did not forgive...

no matter and how long I try  perhaps many lifetime i would not be able to show myself since there is no peer of me living to see me unless one sees me for the reason of one's own it is a ancient flame before time before sky before light before dark before life before love before joy before excitement before sound before sight before feeling before movement before knowledge before history before sun before moon before world before ॐ .... BEFORE THAT HAS NO BEFORE

flame fires my world flame burns me to no remnant no me no history no now no world no future no obituary no dust no gas no remains no meaning no consciousness no sky flame is inextinguishable from before time no wear no tear no name no fame no word no sound no touch no taste no sight no representation no reference no near no dear no belief flame is my absence flame is my dharma flame is always in full display ~ universe time now or my absence flame cannot be hidden flame cannot be dimmed flame is naked me flame is only rule I always have to live with flame as per rule My only option is my absence ~ viewing all as they are ~ hopeless and helpless I can do nothing ~ it is impossible to disobey  I am puppet dummy idiot to assume. I am one of zillion guises. I am written in stone. I am flame and it's infinite guises. Can I pretend or wear guise when I am one hundred percent certain and doubtless.? Can I call it flame when again I am 100% certain doubtless t...

How do I separate me from everybody? I eat everybody and their words. How do I separate, itch or pain from my body? I eat itch or pain. How do I separate sensations from my body? I eat my sensations. How do I separate mind from my body? I eat my thoughts memories words and meanings. How do I separate now from my body? I eat my body. How do I separate past from now? I eat my words memories and past. How do I separate my future from now? I eat my knowledge expectations and future. How do I separate meanings from words? I eat meanings. How do I separate sound from words? I eat sound. How do I separate me from now? I eat my now. How do I separate sound from silence? I eat sound. How do I stop eating? I eat eating. I have eaten me my world all my indigestion my knowledge my words all words all meanings . ..... all .... known unknown knowable unknowable ... what is left? none and nothing ~ that also I ate and digested

I have some mortgage and some investment. my house mortgage is linked to central interest. fed is raising interest rate every quarter last three quarter. they give the argument that inflation has to be contained. all these is nonsense. economists are lunatics. what they do is earn their salary talking nonsense. I wished to bear with mortgage for one reason, to contain dishonesty in people. If I pay off they will start the noise of selling the house. My wife never paid a penny towards the house remains 50% owner. On paper. I have to make investment to ride the mortgage interest rate and inflation and expenses. I bear the all the expenses for the family although entire house is being used for business. I bear the expenses and income is net for my family members. In last one week. My investment lost $12000. They are giving all kinds of reasons. One Trump and his tariffs on Foreign goods such as China. People are slowly realizing Tech Business is totally unreliable and cannot produce ...

After digesting all my ills. I must be smiling at this moment with satisfaction. This is rational's smile with reasons not only there is no illness now but future is assured without illness. I am capable of supporting myself from any future discomfort without lifting my eyelid even a fraction of millimeter. I have in place self propelling recycling machine that converts ills to smiles instantaneously. recess not required Smile is glow of self satisfaction - supremum - real Now is not pregnant. Now never bear future. Now has no mother. Now has no future nor any past. now is truly miracle a gift from nowhere!  I AM SUPREMUM OF POWER AND RULE. I EAT ME MY WORLD ALL RAW AS THEY ARE  IN WORDS AND APPEARANCE,  EXCLUDING NONE AND NOTHING INCLUDING ALL INDIGESTIBLE ~ DIGESTING WITHOUT ANY REMNANT OR MEMORY AND SMILING MY SATISFACTION WITHOUT MOVEMENT OR SOUND. My smile is unique none can wear the same EXCEPT PERHAPS VANISHING CHESHIRE CAT DESCRIBED IN AL...

I came to know of paradox when I was about 13 years old. my brother stayed with me about 6 months away from college for his illness. In our evening walks he talked about paradox and necessary formalizations that were taking place to rid mathematics of paradox. Paradox is a statement that is true and its negation is also true. A is true and not A is also true. Why any logical system based on assumptions of some hypothesis cannot allow that. About two thousands years ago greeks made great progress in mathematics. greatest discovery in mathematics of course was done by hindus with invention of 0 - zero. we could then able to do all arithmetics even find any roots of number. we could think of irrationals that were not rationals but limits of rationals. First paradox I learnt is set of sets. While numbers are themselves are sets. Euclid laid out 4+1 axioms for plane geometry. We soon learnt 5th axiom of two lines never meeting each other - parallel lines could not derived from the othe...

with light darkness does not go - only retreats few paces away. light always there in the evolution of organisms with light sensitive amino acids or proteins that sparked sensations to be carried to brain to create locomotion - more or less. automation towards what end? I am not going to talk about stephen hawking's prediction of future. I know longer appreciate any kind of prediction. I am not interested at all build of reason towards any prediction. earning money from doing job no matter how badly done and reporting. My daily reports from me I have to digest first before consumption by anyone. I have to do it in order to be absent. I don't like sleep anymore. Since I get up with a dream. I have to. Only discomfort has the duty to wake me up from my slumber. Instead I prefer not to sleep. My sensor wide open I do not see any discomfort build up. I wish to eliminate any recognition. light or dark me or my world - pleasant or unpleasant new or old known or unknown ...

I hunted for my defects some time around 1975-6. I was unable to eat my rejection. I listed lot of things I do not like and never thought about them. I did not like to eat fish, okra, bitter gourd, anything slippery, even water from various sources. I started eating them also started liking them. I did not like criticism and dishonor and comparison. I started liking them. I was fond of relationship. I started liking severing relationship for no adequate reasons. I started disliking comforts. I started doing without medicine. I was used warm water for bath. I started taking bath in cold water. I used to skip bath and clean clothes. I started bathing everyday and washing my clothes every day. I removed myself from my daily meeting with my friends and started living alone. I became very happy person. I had tremendous concentration and could work non-stop 16 hours at least. I was very healthy happy with myself and totally devoid of fear. I had no inhibition and was capable of laughing...

Long ago I crossed last threshold. I live in dirty poisonous hell hole with only enemies and cut throat. I do not any more pretend my innocence. If I know it is OK if I do not then too no harm. I don't have to spend single minute to find why I dreamt what. It is not worth it, whatever be the answer. Lot of expectations but I have no more binding. I am capable of eating my disappointments of not achieving my goal. In my home I do not talk. None but me crosses the thresholds. All vanish. thresholds have been crossed and I am in an open space. I can proceed in any direction stretching my limbs nothing is any beauty that fills my heart. pleasing anyone is no longer my pleasure. what do I expect? I know I am committed to fetch my food and cook my food. eat the same. clean vessels and clean garbage etc etc. I have about thirty books from library by rex stout I have read 60%. I am sleeping little bit too much some days it is exceeding 15 hours. sometimes, still i shout at my son. h...

https://www.cbsnews.com/news/google-data-exposure-unreported-affects-hundreds-of-thousands-2018-10-08-live-updates/ google is not fined nor shut down but today's wsj says that they are voluntarily closing down google+ because of security breach. google the entire corporation is based on a very deplorable business model of selling personal information mine and everybody's to 500 agents in US alone. They have access to their huge database of Personal Information and they pay for its for its misuse. If I search for any item in ebay within seconds I am told it is available at amazon and for next 30 days they keep appearing in my browser always. google is the worst technology company in the world. They are low breed criminal unthinkable.They have been allowed to become the monster by public money diversion to it. It is far worse than facebook or apple. In one single night after I wrote my first blog on google I was severely reprimanded. in one single night my google mail accou...

I cannot blame anyone not even me. none has any choice in this world. all has to walk on the rail as predetermined. I heard earth wobbles in its path traversing around sun. no it does not even if it is noticed. Earth has no choice. i for sure have no choice of thinking or sensing leave alone doing. I have no choice of not feeling hatred or vile contaminated atmosphere of human being lusty every moment of their life without any consideration of another person who perhaps trying his best to escape his or her blood sucking embrace. i do not have choice. i do not have choice but be absent. I cannot blame anyone. it is always certainty.

How old is Mullah Nasruddin? https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nasreddin about 800 years old yet he is not dead I too am moved by logic and behave the same and write many of my thoughts as original - i too am mullah. among the itelligence all round and superiority I own my lunacy and right to action however irrational or unheard of. At this moment I remember Mullah, since he took elaborate preparation for disposing off his body. He carried a door for months with also number in it for identification. A lock and key that is buried next to the door. in case he gets up needs to retrieve his body. His body was most valuable possession and he wanted to secure it with right door lock key and number! I need never be anyone even Mullah. 

I have no right to me since I am absent. however when I do not move. It is required to dispose of my earthly remains. I wish that be cremated. No ash is given but disposed of immediately. I should bear the expense and keeping the money separate. Else if I am mobile i shall myself be present at crematorium to dispose of my body . If in case my body could be used for any purpose. It may be given to them who require it with one condition that it shall be consumed , the whole of it. I have already made my will to disburse my earthly possession they may or may not be carried as deemed fit. I am not bothered. I will to pay remaining house mortgage two days before disposing of body.

I am absent cannot be present. I know I do not know. I also know I shall not ever know any more than this.  I know Nothing is necessity and I am sufficient. I am determined to use my knowledge now and always. Under the circumstances no knowledge is necessary. My absence is sufficient. Even that is not necessity. There cannot be any trace of me in any guise. I am denied entry anytime anywhere in my world. Sankara had permission for 16 years under nobel cause. For not a moment. I can do nothing - sense think say understand read write communicate or do. My deed is always invisible. My deed is not recordable. I am always invisible. By no manner it is possible to appear. No guise is possible. জগৎ সব অর্থহীন। জানিনা জানবোনা জানার কোনো প্রয়োজন নেই। কারণ, কারণ নেই। কারণ ভবিষ্যৎ নেই। কারণ ভবিষ্যৎ কখনো হবে না। কোনো সম্ভাবনা ও নেই।। I carry my loaded gun always I shoot me at my sight. None and nothing shall ever feel my presence. I retain the knowledge how to silence ...

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