Permanent resource Hope

I have an inexhaustible resource. I know it is my future.

I had some incomplete work on my car. It is now about 50 degrees and I conveniently postponed it to next summer if I ever visit.

I am looking for assignments in my terms. It have postponed it my next birth.

I am looking for companion who is as clean and as good as Cole or cicilia with whom I can spend endless time without any strain. Them I love and respect and relationship. I belong to such beautiful group of people. I have left for such companions to my next life.

I have long list of people or similar people I have memorized them in my forgettable store called akashik records. so that I stay from them forever and ever in future.

I also have a wish for future. After my death I shall be sent a pure soul like Cole to pick me up for my next journey. Cicilia already left and Cole may not last long into next year.

My heart breaks thinking about it. I have to swallow hard to digest grif from loneliness.

if I fail to be idiot, unable to differentiate good from evil, further biased towards good, if I am grieving. I must use my intellect to invent a broom that sweeps away my perceived bad to future, say tomorrow. I do sweep everyday bad from today to tomorrow.

Procrastination is my primary trait and I keep practicing the same every day.
here of course is a simple reason. When I have another life time to spend, I shall do all needed to be done in next life. this life of mine is for enjoyment only and no hardship.

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