it is ok even if I am blabbering non-stop
given the circumstances that I have no control and doing non stop compelled by the so called creator of mine and I never know ~ i am a helpless hope victim without choice.
nobody may accept what I am doing but I have to accept my inability and disability to even comprehend what I am thinking talking or doing. I cannot escape while I must accept even if I am shouting raving mad.
even if none excuses me I am without option and compelled to excuse me.
What is intolerable? Why I should care for anyone or anything or any event any thought any deed any action any event whoever is responsible including me? Can I not care?
Any caring or not caring is not done by me.
Nothing can happen in my world, nothing is going to happen in my world, nothing happened in my world without Him doing the same - all is always done by the creator 100%. He is root of all perceived events ever since the world was born.
I am as I am - senseless dead idiot and absent. I was so in the past. I am so in present. I shall be so in the future. My fascination of a hypothetical me can no longer be supported. even if I try 24 hours for rest of my life I cannot be visible or sensible; nor can I leave behind me in any form (real, ghost, descendant, remnants, record, image, or memory) in my world. Nothing of terra can ever be attributed to me as me or my deed.
I am incapable of existing or possessing anything in my world. Despite if I assume me, that I cannot be and suffer, I have to bear till the end of me and my sufferings. I cannot exist in my world as sane insane living non-living or in any other form. I cannot heed my suffering or do anything about that. I have forbidden me attending to all my suffering for all time to come.
all without exception is forever and ever divine. My failure to think all is divine always too is divine.
nobody may accept what I am doing but I have to accept my inability and disability to even comprehend what I am thinking talking or doing. I cannot escape while I must accept even if I am shouting raving mad.
even if none excuses me I am without option and compelled to excuse me.
What is intolerable? Why I should care for anyone or anything or any event any thought any deed any action any event whoever is responsible including me? Can I not care?
Any caring or not caring is not done by me.
Nothing can happen in my world, nothing is going to happen in my world, nothing happened in my world without Him doing the same - all is always done by the creator 100%. He is root of all perceived events ever since the world was born.
I am as I am - senseless dead idiot and absent. I was so in the past. I am so in present. I shall be so in the future. My fascination of a hypothetical me can no longer be supported. even if I try 24 hours for rest of my life I cannot be visible or sensible; nor can I leave behind me in any form (real, ghost, descendant, remnants, record, image, or memory) in my world. Nothing of terra can ever be attributed to me as me or my deed.
I am incapable of existing or possessing anything in my world. Despite if I assume me, that I cannot be and suffer, I have to bear till the end of me and my sufferings. I cannot exist in my world as sane insane living non-living or in any other form. I cannot heed my suffering or do anything about that. I have forbidden me attending to all my suffering for all time to come.
all without exception is forever and ever divine. My failure to think all is divine always too is divine.
I am the one and only divinity the guiseless helpless and hopeless ~ I must view all as they are without any further imagination indulgence prediction or expectations; since all is false or illusion and do not have any substance meaning or existence
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