nowthenafter

lover carry mirror ~ love. I loved and and i know the mirror called love. it is so fragile and it breaks even without any event. while behind my mirror, my love has her mirror and she is still trusting her mirror is in tact. while it is not. 25 years living together and enjoying love and companionship of each other the mirror with two faces lost one face. I am talking about divinity Ram. One incident, kidnapping of Sita ruined Rama's trust of Sita while Sita still loved him. For rest of Rama's life ~ while Sita kept expecting return of love in Rama. That was never to happen. Rama's mirror did not reflect love but his doubt. Why? Why Rama, the divinity, could not quieten the noise in himself and accept Sita As her pure self! Why Rama could not ever look at Sita ever again without DOUBT. what is the doubt? The doubt could never be wiped out as long as Rama could not forget the kidnapper who was killed by himself but never forgotten. Rama could not forgive Sita who was gu...

i have given physical dimension of divinity real that is creator of ourworld; its location; its capability; its capacity to fool us as long as we wish to be fooled; where it came from; where it goes; and when it goes. believe or not. choice is uniquely ours. if you believe you shall see for yourself. you shall see then divinity in others and their direct physical reality called divine. you yourself be established forever on the throne of divine comfort at the heart center of ever expanding world of yours entirely within the same. valmiki the first author of his world, provided very detailed description of the same along with lots of riddles. one riddle is sita. she was born of single parent, earth! where was her divinity? did she not have her divinity same as us? she had adopted father who taught her about life living and family and destiny. are not destiny written in heaven? what was heaven for sita? when was it predestined that she would be married to rama or kidnapped by ravana? ...

i am not detective and neither wish to reveal any secret or puzzle. however, i am puzzled what i expect does not happen. i had to answer to myself how could i be such a fool to presume what i presume. i had to shut down myself and i had to review every moment of my life under microscope. till all events clears off. not all of them though. i am not interested. surprisingly they do appear as without any dust of my hesitation. why something did not fit the explanation. puzzle. one puzzle is forever increasingly unsolvable. why joya trying to do all her life what she is engaged in doing. sacrificing her joy of living for the sake of some dark secret of her from me and not interested at all to know. i am not curious. how she is allowing her family to blackmail her joy of living. she doesn't even care for zinia soham. it is so unlike of a mother not caring her own children. even though i am not interested, it cannot happen i would die with curiosity. i am prepared for anything in my w...

what is the unit of time? earth rotation around sun or electron around nucleus. for me i find earth rotation around sun is practical and it was so 3000 years or so. ever since greeks discovered π. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atomic_clock for me i have already answered my query who i am and i know for sure. but i still on daily basis i write for two reasons; one for clarity of my vision and second iam dictated to perform as automation. i have discussed about empty space as reality and described pinhead diameter as approximation and then the capacity of information that can hold. next to the space that can hold only one bit of that information. this changes over time and technology progress in my world. i am now trying to give realistic idea of zero time. how accurately i can measure in my world my time. (1/10) ** 14 of a second. it is required in my world to keep all clock synchronized to this accuracy for run our day to day affairs of communication tv radio transmission. our t...

the light that that lit every moment of light for 70 years ever since i was born. i had to clean the surface light everyday for last 50 years. i learnt this first time from stuti. when i met her she was a gregarious girl having many friends and not self conscious herself. unlike every other girls at our school. where girls were never seen mixing with boys. in fact her behavior was looked down upon and her parents were called by the warden. stuti came to us about it and i ravi and swami met tadavis at his home. prof. davis realized his mistake but his wife. prof. davis reminded his wife that his son barnard was living with a girl in berkley. barnard was one year senior to me. abnormal was realized as abnormal. tautology is the cornerstone of truth. celibacy is not. stuti was very reluctant to share her diaries. there were many of them ever since she was transitioning from a girl to woman. they were her candid disposal of emotions rather excitements. till then my release of exciteme...

logic of theory is not complete unless there is model demonstrating truths of theory in practice. theorems. earth is a model of numbers, real. numbers rationals and reals are required to be constructed inductively where theorems of real numbers are true. abstract real numbers are model into sets. the queen of all sets is emptyset. φ. all theorems of all theories are realized and true in φ. this set has no member. empty. what i need to communicate to all human, including me, for alltime is empty space. humans are born with senses and they create science technology and space traveling machines. machines smaller and faster. empty space is having diameter less than the pinhead. diameter of pinhead is ever changing with time and technology progress. pinhead can contain one bit. bit is changing as per the progress of technology. how much information can a pinhead contain is one bit measure. this one bit is indefinitely as per technology progress. equivalently time. are time and space ...

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Occam%27s_razor simplest explanation is the best one. i have only seen the origin of bhagirathi. it is from gomukh. water flows out from below of a glacier trapped in the region of kedarnath. two horns of head of a imagined cow and water flowing out of its mouth. quite a plenty of it. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gomukh alaknanda is very fast flowing river at badrinath originates from vasudhara falls. its color is that of slate. darkish white. while bhagirathy is somewhat muddy. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vasudhara_Falls what is the simplest reason for words flowing out of through mouth snout or lips of populace  from ancient time to now. no words. nothing can be simpler than that. end of curiosity is my own silence and hearing the same and echo reflected from lips of sages. one traces the river of never dryings sounds of flow and then enter the mouth that is emitting the sound and reach the source of words that is silence. silent. ab...

this morning dream did not have any message of importance. it was lazy wondering in some past about three decades ago with memories of my acquaintance with them i did not have anything to share. i used to work with them. one was rajiv roy who was with me in kolkata stp. he had his orbit that i had no familiarity. i search for him in the internet i found a posting from him in FB about four years back. he went to australia in 1988-9 after his marriage. i attended his reception in bengali club. he was then not working with me. i am not connected with anyone. i did not have much of any information from him. he guided me once into another office where some cricket commentary was going on saying that just walk in and be quiet about your presence. he was karate black belt from kuwait. i learnt that he is perhaps exactly my age  and did graduation from osu in 1971 and mba from maryland and now perhaps works at hp australia. he had same blank face the same thin appearance and without spect...

my poverty is real. in ramayana the story i know king dasaratha knew no poverty. he had 10 cars. kingdom without conflict ~ meaning of ayodhya. 360 consorts. 3 queens to run the household and provide  companionship always peacetime and wartime intellectual artistic and love comfort. he too is looking to expand his companionship. children are missing? continuity. immortality. of happiness even when he is not there? no truly. just now. future truly does not matter. for me future really matters. for me time is running out. i slept 14 hours at a stretch. i did not feel any kind of discomfort. i was very happy. in fact i thought there is no need need for me to comment my reflection on dishonest motives of bjp and rss. i have left india forever. but i still possess mental touch trying improve life of indian. they definitely do not need me. i have very limited space to live. why india america or any kin should occupy space. i have only space less than pin head to accommodate. the s...

I am limited by my knowledge. i have heard and seen historical places where politicians were eliminated. kennedy gandhi King lincoln.  are not jesus or socrates murdered for their knowledge? two of gandhi family were shot and disintgrated by bodyguard and publicly without protection. even though they avoid the same and don't ask for. chhotu travels without cover often incognito and unannounced within India and abroad. don't envy don't com pare. chhotu visited amarnath mansarovar and many pilgrim destinations established by adi sankara without any bodyguard and cover unlike vek mahayogi. he talked very meaningfully in many universities in USA being invited to talk about India. in one university when he was asked about family, he said that he did not think it is blackmark to be born in family with pedigree in politics. he thought learnt most from his family. as a child he met prabhakaran whom he gave bulletproof jacket of his father being asked by rajiv. rajiv was disint...

the appropriate title should be snake to liberation. my intelligence is forever deceiving me in seeing something in something. i am afraid of snake right from very childhood i remember. i don't know how it got into y consciousness at from what stories. in summer i used to sleep outside till sun rise. it was usually fun. we used hear some stories of snake bites now and then. there was one physician of some fame who used to treat snake bites. and there was lot of precautionary first aid was in circulation like let out blood at the bite; bind around bite region disallowing venom to spread and reach heart or spread elsewhere. The primary component of  snake venom  is protein. ... These enzymes aid in the breakdown of carbohydrates, proteins, phospholipids, and nucleotides in prey. Toxic enzymes also function to lower blood pressure, destroy red blood cells, and inhibit muscle control. An additional component of  snake venom  is polypeptide toxin. dr. paresh banerji us...