snake
the appropriate title should be snake to liberation. my intelligence is forever deceiving me in seeing something in something. i am afraid of snake right from very childhood i remember. i don't know how it got into y consciousness at from what stories. in summer i used to sleep outside till sun rise. it was usually fun. we used hear some stories of snake bites now and then. there was one physician of some fame who used to treat snake bites. and there was lot of precautionary first aid was in circulation like let out blood at the bite; bind around bite region disallowing venom to spread and reach heart or spread elsewhere.
The primary component of snake venom is protein. ... These enzymes aid in the breakdown of carbohydrates, proteins, phospholipids, and nucleotides in prey. Toxic enzymes also function to lower blood pressure, destroy red blood cells, and inhibit muscle control. An additional component of snake venom is polypeptide toxin.
dr. paresh banerji used to make antivenom medicine for various species of snake. the place where i lived was santhal pargana full of snakes usually small one called mihijam. jam stood for snake and mihi meant small ones. the nearby place was jamtara. tara meant bigger ones. i was very scared of snakes and till this day. if i sight one snake i would avoid going that place for days. i had many imagined stories and imagined solution.
essentially i was very scared of death. and i was reluctant to experiment. one other is diving. later in baroda while walking home through a lonely stretch of road through a park i used to come across very large snakes trying to catch bird or bird nest. in noida i used to meet sometime a gang of apparently trapping people with snake on their neck snatch money. here i usually go to zoo see snakes of all kinds.
so much elaborate talks because whatever my expectations whoever from i expect they do not live outside but coreside in me with the me living whom i am trying desperately keep alive and in comfort away wound accident sickness disability poverty and away from potential thieves and robbers. this very attitude make me coresident with my imagined evils 24x7x365.i am in discomfort 24x7x365 and have been so for all my lifetime. my source stories of my nightmare are evils i am trying to avoid.
snake is not at fault. robber is not at fault. thief is not at fault. no disease no food no drink ... none or nothing is at fault or causing my discomfort now at this moment but it is caused by me. i do not let some events not happen to me. even while sleeping i am very alert and do test my alertness with simulated events or dreams. i wake up sweating.
what is the remedy?
i cannot turn the coins or stones identified as evils by me. i have already exhausted 70 years. very little time is left to waste. i have to cohabit with both comfort and discomfort without making any analysis or classification of any recognition of either.
where is the need?
unless i am expecting ~ good or bad.
what is good? i receive comfort. what is bad? i lose comfort.
who am i? is good not me? is bad not me? all cohabit within my cranium indistinguishable inseparable indivisible. rama is ravana. ravana is rama. both is my identity.
i expect. why should i expect? why not? i am not witnessing street fight and killing and getting beaten in Delhi. i am enjoying my mares always day night sleep awake in dream.
where is the cure? is my intelligence awakened? is there any need to be comfortable? is there any need to be uncomfortable? how do i make the difference? how do i change my perception of comfort to discomfort or vice versa?
i can run. i can yap. i can read. i can tire. i do not know how to be better or worse with all of the galaxy all residing in me and not physically outside me.
known all is me. unknown too is me. my cranium has nothing but me. what can i expect tomorrow or any other time. it is always me. may be i have seen before and supposed to be known to me. i am no longer sure if it is the same what i saw before. i forget. if i have not seen ever i know. whatever it is unknown. but certainly it is me and within my cranium. nothing everi sense is outside me. i have to live with both known and unknown forever. poisonous snake knife threatening robber burning house my cheating relation; a child i never seen before a place i never been a book i never read all unknown too live in me and cannot be outside. as soon i see them and whatever i see becomes known and resides in me till forgotten. none ever can get out. they live in me till they are forgotten by me.
i now understand my ahangar story.
The primary component of snake venom is protein. ... These enzymes aid in the breakdown of carbohydrates, proteins, phospholipids, and nucleotides in prey. Toxic enzymes also function to lower blood pressure, destroy red blood cells, and inhibit muscle control. An additional component of snake venom is polypeptide toxin.
dr. paresh banerji used to make antivenom medicine for various species of snake. the place where i lived was santhal pargana full of snakes usually small one called mihijam. jam stood for snake and mihi meant small ones. the nearby place was jamtara. tara meant bigger ones. i was very scared of snakes and till this day. if i sight one snake i would avoid going that place for days. i had many imagined stories and imagined solution.
essentially i was very scared of death. and i was reluctant to experiment. one other is diving. later in baroda while walking home through a lonely stretch of road through a park i used to come across very large snakes trying to catch bird or bird nest. in noida i used to meet sometime a gang of apparently trapping people with snake on their neck snatch money. here i usually go to zoo see snakes of all kinds.
so much elaborate talks because whatever my expectations whoever from i expect they do not live outside but coreside in me with the me living whom i am trying desperately keep alive and in comfort away wound accident sickness disability poverty and away from potential thieves and robbers. this very attitude make me coresident with my imagined evils 24x7x365.i am in discomfort 24x7x365 and have been so for all my lifetime. my source stories of my nightmare are evils i am trying to avoid.
snake is not at fault. robber is not at fault. thief is not at fault. no disease no food no drink ... none or nothing is at fault or causing my discomfort now at this moment but it is caused by me. i do not let some events not happen to me. even while sleeping i am very alert and do test my alertness with simulated events or dreams. i wake up sweating.
what is the remedy?
i cannot turn the coins or stones identified as evils by me. i have already exhausted 70 years. very little time is left to waste. i have to cohabit with both comfort and discomfort without making any analysis or classification of any recognition of either.
where is the need?
unless i am expecting ~ good or bad.
what is good? i receive comfort. what is bad? i lose comfort.
who am i? is good not me? is bad not me? all cohabit within my cranium indistinguishable inseparable indivisible. rama is ravana. ravana is rama. both is my identity.
i expect. why should i expect? why not? i am not witnessing street fight and killing and getting beaten in Delhi. i am enjoying my mares always day night sleep awake in dream.
where is the cure? is my intelligence awakened? is there any need to be comfortable? is there any need to be uncomfortable? how do i make the difference? how do i change my perception of comfort to discomfort or vice versa?
i can run. i can yap. i can read. i can tire. i do not know how to be better or worse with all of the galaxy all residing in me and not physically outside me.
known all is me. unknown too is me. my cranium has nothing but me. what can i expect tomorrow or any other time. it is always me. may be i have seen before and supposed to be known to me. i am no longer sure if it is the same what i saw before. i forget. if i have not seen ever i know. whatever it is unknown. but certainly it is me and within my cranium. nothing everi sense is outside me. i have to live with both known and unknown forever. poisonous snake knife threatening robber burning house my cheating relation; a child i never seen before a place i never been a book i never read all unknown too live in me and cannot be outside. as soon i see them and whatever i see becomes known and resides in me till forgotten. none ever can get out. they live in me till they are forgotten by me.
i now understand my ahangar story.
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