i am shadow
i am happy being shadow when i am.
the original, before me and the original after me, when gives me the awareness of shadow; i am just more than happy. the whole day i wait for my this existence of ghost of him. i glad to be ghost. the whole day, i wait for this moment, when i have to write for the good of people. while i write, i cannot correct any mistake however. not allowed.
today i got a message from amazon publishing that my book is reviewed; and i may publish the same. mechanically i was doing, what i needed to do; when i noticed that amazon wants me to write about the book for its circulation. i added couple of thousand more letters. i am a man of letters. Then I just thought; why do not i make my work more intelligible to me. i was about to do that; but my hand was in iron grip. i am not permitted.
often i find the will to good for people; the writer ganesh had more freedom than me while writing Mahabharata. he was permitted to understand; what was being dictated to him. i do not have that permission. i have to write my thoughts as they spring forth. i am not even allowed to read; what i have written.
if any reading me, wishes to find out for oneself, that before before or after after and the original now; him or her not allowed to correct language words or omission. the spring of words for once only. first time is last time. not for public. one is dummy puppet has no mind and must remain so.
must not jump out of one's skin and start claiming godhood. the original.
once upon a time and for long time, i used to be afraid. anticipating disappearance of me. i used to pray; to be kept in use; and prevent my disappearance. this life of mine, as i have seen so far, i am handled by creator step by step; till i saw me clearly without hellucination. that dark wall that is the absorbing barrier. i reach the same many times in a single day. not on my own; but being led into it by the original.
i never am. i am fortunate to be only a shadow of the one and only absolute. The Unshakeable foundation.
the original, before me and the original after me, when gives me the awareness of shadow; i am just more than happy. the whole day i wait for my this existence of ghost of him. i glad to be ghost. the whole day, i wait for this moment, when i have to write for the good of people. while i write, i cannot correct any mistake however. not allowed.
today i got a message from amazon publishing that my book is reviewed; and i may publish the same. mechanically i was doing, what i needed to do; when i noticed that amazon wants me to write about the book for its circulation. i added couple of thousand more letters. i am a man of letters. Then I just thought; why do not i make my work more intelligible to me. i was about to do that; but my hand was in iron grip. i am not permitted.
often i find the will to good for people; the writer ganesh had more freedom than me while writing Mahabharata. he was permitted to understand; what was being dictated to him. i do not have that permission. i have to write my thoughts as they spring forth. i am not even allowed to read; what i have written.
if any reading me, wishes to find out for oneself, that before before or after after and the original now; him or her not allowed to correct language words or omission. the spring of words for once only. first time is last time. not for public. one is dummy puppet has no mind and must remain so.
must not jump out of one's skin and start claiming godhood. the original.
once upon a time and for long time, i used to be afraid. anticipating disappearance of me. i used to pray; to be kept in use; and prevent my disappearance. this life of mine, as i have seen so far, i am handled by creator step by step; till i saw me clearly without hellucination. that dark wall that is the absorbing barrier. i reach the same many times in a single day. not on my own; but being led into it by the original.
i never am. i am fortunate to be only a shadow of the one and only absolute. The Unshakeable foundation.
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