before before

i am fed time and i am suckling the same every moment even before i knew time.

that is before time and some not too a distant in future it shall stop production of time when i no longer need the same ~ synchronously ~ jugalbandi music ends 

does musician ends? what is end? what is before before? that definitely was there even if my story is partially true ~ in case there is false or transient or নিমেষ ~ nano of nano second and even if it is not there ~ that is always

that is not learned at all but creator of learning

i am writing this being compelled to write this and i cannot disobey. i could not disobey that even for a nano of nano second. that is unwavering creator of time creator of space before me before i became zygote. 

it oversaw me multiply into many cell many organs seeing sensing thinking and learning ...

that did not take recess but unfailingly taught everything time creates ~ stars light gas liquid objects plants livings non livings society rule normal abnormals laws theories and permanents perishable good bad ... places communication vehicles travels people minds ... stories reliables unreliables

what do i know about that? anything more than what i have already said

i of course knew of its existence for long long time ever since i existed or born even before birth of language 

i know unknown and unknowable that exists and created the boundary of my knowledge that i wont be able to cross ~ time

that even exists after time

what can i do now when now is new as i split time ... nano of nano second based on my observation of sun moon day night ... senses and their observables

that creates new as per my ability to create micros to observe. further it provides me the ability

who is god as i define god or discover new ones?

who creates new? does that ever change? who am i? where am i? my family? my world?

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