no appearance

having no appearance is most durable image of all if i can maintain
that is - i go anywhere anyplace and move around and i do not expect to be seen
i need no permission
frankly why should i need permission
i do not presume any identity and carry no identity
in other words - i can not ask

in this case that i have no appearance
whatever i hear see read and sense it is not directed to me
it must not be
it is mistaken perception - wrong perception of mine - when i am not there how can i be handcuffed starved or physically tormented
it must be mistake of somebody else and not me
i cannot correct anybody's perception of me
i have no option but not recognize since it is not meant for me

if some one says that i love you looking at me or my direction
i must at all enquire - did you ever seen before - if not how do you know it is me - as of now i have no appearance

having no appearance as good as any appearance as per the whims of the noticer perceiver
i am mad child innocent adult handsome dirty deplorable idiot intelligent learned whatever is the hypothesis of the other entity
that entity can be animal bird fish insect moving non-moving reactive chemical
i would not ever know even if i try to get to the bottom of this with many decades and centuries of research

i shall know lot of things about my surroundings doing this research as i have done till now
it is my world - i know who does what when - i perhaps i would know their beliefs and i may care to write them down lest i have that in my finger tip whenever i want to know again

i am a librarian

however i know for sure i have no appearance for me and what i may appear to any
is my appearance

no appearance is nothing but having all appearance ~ though not true - false ~ however i am helpless to prevent this

i have no appearance not even one of inquisitive

 i believe in thee and agree with thee 
whatever i am perceived is me and i must be so without option 

i am totally powerless to practice what i know
i am aware of absolute




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