zinia

one morning zinia disappeared about two three weeks back
i presumed she had gone to join Infosys in California
last Saturday she was back in the morning
i found a luggage boarding tag from Indianapolis
i am yet to find out where she is working
i am not eager to know
i went to bed early last night
i ate a little too much
till late night i heard Joya and zinia talking
she did not take her car
when she left home

Joya is arranging her food packets
zinia perhaps taking her car

in the morning while i was in bed
i heard soham asking from his mother 100 dollar
he wants to visit his college

today is 1st of January 2019
my family is independent of my thinking
but only listening distance away
whatever i think
i am wrong to think
however all is happening at my premise

who is that me
do I have any option to think
what I think
do I have any option to hear what I hear
do I have any option to see what I see
do I have any option to sense what I sense
trained as I am

no matter what is my perception
god is invariable
and good
and always
irrespective of time date
and place

furthermore
irrespective of date time coordinate and context
whatever I did said wrote and perceived
was invariably good for my world for all time to come
and cannot be better