soham

soham has extraordinary will
he cannot be swayed from whatever he set his mind to do good or bad or acceptable to me or not
his priorities cannot be changed
yesterday i came to know he his not taking food except water from beginning of january the entire month
he gave the reason that he was following what he was studying or sleeping
yesterday he ate solid for first time that too very little according to joya

i concluded that his biological clock got totally disturbed
last four years he was driving average 100 miles everyday for his studies plus all related study work
that screwed up his biological clock and whatever he had had
he was overweight
he set up his mind to reduce weight
and he started fasting
i saw definitely his paunch is gone
he reduced at least 25 lbs in one month

assume you have a house full of furnitures and the carpet needs replacement and you have no help
whatever engineering technique you use
it is truly needs great efforts

had i not accumulated so much garbage it would have so much easier to clean my house
now somehow i am able to change the carpet of my house
would i need furnitures again
would i get anything and keep with me for daily use
no matter what
no matter whom
no matter what is my obligation
no matter what is my promise
no matter what anyone ever say

i cannot have any attachment
am i not being soham for 50 years
removing attachments to people and things i accumulated
i am out of space

i am a prisoner

I have to learn to leave soham alone from today just now