resistance

I have been telling my offsprings that one need be a short circuit between external and internal
meaning one need not jump to conclusion no matter what

external is pride
internal is getting moved
positive or negative
attracted or repulsed

i hear about chemistry
meaning relationship causing bonding
opposite of bombing
causing lot of exhausions
neither is good nor bad
but definitely a waste that is preventable

lepers do not possess sensations
it is a kind of nerve disease
can they remain attracted to their body or others body

suppose i am hard of hearing
it is kind of blessing
i don't really hear what is being said
i don't anticipate death when i see a gun pulled at me
all is necessarily dud

it is really a great advantage to be an idiot
thomas edison was really in great advantage compared to others since he was hard of hearing
he could not be disturbed by words in a crowd

is it necessary to be sharp
does it matter very much to know the day date and time
when i would reach the space of no return
and i have to compose another world to live

i am surprised to know that nothing ever happens
nothing ever can happen
internal and external are parallel universe
and they cannot be shorted or bridged

i cannot hear or see me as long as hear or see my world
and vice versa
every little thing i do read write say think sleep or dream and i don't
is for my world and i can't do otherwise
i am compelled to do
i have to

i have to feel guilty out of no choice
it is impossible to do for me in my world
in my world none has this privilege
not even a murderer or donald trump or putin pelosi or cohen
no suicide is out of a choice

nothing is preventable in the show