vulture

gunas

manifestation of human characteristics. all gunas being same and and central being dharma ~ never manifested.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shakuni
here is an interesting account of the villain in mahabharata, shakuni who made a very far sighted plan of destruction for his sister's family and his own family too that includes his parents and 100 siblings. all because of his fascination for his sister; who was in her childhood afraid of dark. while married to a blind she vowed not to see light and blindfolded herself for life. must be very great torture for herself. shakuni made meticulous plan of destruction of her progeny and family. he advised his nephews to be always selfish;; until the boat tilted and sank carrying all. selfishness was his guna. Thus his name is shukuni. Like vulture. Vulture is nature's scavenger of dead and cadaver. waits for death!

i was horrified about seven years back to witness the extent of selfishness from which india is suffering; and how long India possibly can survive? In this seven years india has gone in a direction of economic and social destruction under the guidance of RSS and BJP and their cooked up superiority of race of hindutva;; while there was nothing like hindutva ever existed. Hindutva is origin of hatred and its spread in every indian's mind.

i was driven away from India and the cheap means of salvation from selfishness and of not sharing practiced by most. it is incurable disease. living in hell forever! ever since i was conscious of my world, i was very curious about the seed and the soil that made my world ~ ever growing tree. i was seeking for an answer for my comfortable lodging and living in my world; forever practicing superiority and domination and hatred.

is it possible to create a permanent home in my world that practices hatred always?

given that i am permanent, i can have reincarnation and live as long as i want, if i of course wish; what seed or knowledge, i should carry birth after birth about my Permanent home? what happens to me if i do not wish to be reborn again, or i wish my world practicing discrimination to vanish? can i annihilate my world anytime anywhere whenever i don't like it? what causes my birth and at the sametime the birth of my world? why can't my world be of plenty without superiority? why selfishness? How do i create such a home of plenty, even with ever increasing population engaged in selfish fight till death? It must be possible! If it is possible, the home of plenty must be permanent!

i am prepared to do everything! truth must be.

today i of course have no intention to carry any seed of this tree, my world, when the tree dies. all born presumably must die. Knowledge of my world must die. whenever i don't wish to wear my world, i must not wear it! the seed if at all must be kernel and at the same time whole ~ innocent naked always ~ my dress my world my knowledge, i do not carry ~ never even from one moment to the next moment.

shakuni too had death in the hands of sahadeva. trust in god. as long shakuni was alive no human could be trusted. shakuni manipulates DICE! selfishness can manipulate even manifestation of divine unselfishness. equal likelihood. Fairness! vengeance can make one TOTAL DISHONEST. Shakuni was determined to destroy all GUNAS in human. are not all virtues has the same seed of unselfishness?

vengeance, SELFISHNESS, ANNIHILATES ALL MANIFESTATIONS OF UNSELFISHNESS ~ sharing.  Mahabharata divides time in 4 epochs. in the first epoch, there is no selfishness, Satya ~ truth. in the second epoch, at most one selfish act for every 4 acts. in the third epoch, at most 2 selfish acts in 3 acts. 4th epoch one is allowed to be always selfish. Mahabharata is the story of third epoch on the verge of the 4th epoch. it is now in the subcontinent of India. pakistan bangladesh sri lanka nepal bhutan ...

this morning i rose very early; about four hours early. a persistent question was in my mind if ever i wish to live again, what seed or knowledge, from this world of mine now, should i carry? i of course know for sure i have no space to carry even a moment. not a word!

in shillong many a days were sunless and very exhausting with endless rains pouring always. ma used to look out for a glimpse of sun in the clouds so that she could tie a knot in a corner of her sari a seed, a ray from sun, with a promise of sacrifice to sun if he rises and not remain hidden behind clouds. the knot is the reminder of promise for her to fulfill.

can i carry a star? and if i ever have to live in darkness forever; with this seed i shall make the sky and build my world again unselfish if i achieve one in this birth the knowledge of unselfishness!

is not innocence itself unselfishness?

my shoe is very tight; a star there will make my present living very uncomfortable!

no space but for me, the innocent only, without all gunas or plants of unselfishness. i cannot carry any virtue or knowledge or achievement. only innocent me and not even a wish or a promise.

if there is any time i must be time independent and just now ~ no knowledge no thought no memory no expectation no courage no senses no intelligence nothing must i be just now!

i am absent. now is my identity. 
how do i improve defend fight promote or support me?  

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