silence

it is the same moment given to me every time i ask and i cannot stop asking.

i am divided into 4. me joya zinia soham. every moment i am asked 4 questions.  they are my questions to myself. am i happy about my self? answer is never? why? my health wealth spouse children ... house home...

i get tired and ask how long?

fine, no problem have another moment. many moments later. i am tired. i wish to sleep.

meru ~ silence ~ creator

the axis that provides me every moment. i am tired of asking for another moment. another moment is another inevitable failures. i definitely do not want another failure or another moment.

i do not wish to do. not even ask. this moment is sufficient. it is not. why?

i am not meru. i am not silence. why?

i am the reason  ... fire unextinguished. why don't i tolerate the fire and let it burn wait till no more noise. what is alternative to patience? when i know my world cannot solve my problem.

silence alone may silence my world ~ if only allowed i may be gracefully absent else i continue to be huffing puffing talking but my world remains exactly what is intended with me or without me