noticeable
i do not exercise except enjoying my idleness and wishing me enjoy boat ride on my thoughts ~ stream flowing ...
sometime some thoughts catch my fancy once or twice in a day ~ i recollect study and compose words
i got up after seven hours sleep and again went for another seven hours sleep ~ spent on boat ride on my thoughts without rowing or stirring my thought stream
last night i spent on lot of reading and listening to muhammad yunus but my concentration strayed ~ i remember one girl anari went and spent about a year with him creating solar lamp etc. ~ then i remembered bunker roy's barefoot college ~ then i wondered how india forever struggling with poverty did not benefit from grameen bank ~ india can benefit from no ideas ever from any one ~ gandhi rabindranath ramakrishna ... all have to fail not able to create happiness in people
i had to write on ramakrishna's failure
i came across ramakrishna while i was student in baranagar ~ often i would walk alone to ganges shore where dakshineswar was ~ kali mandir where for a while ramakrishna was priest ~ the room where ramakrishna lived still preserved as museum
across the river in the opposite bank was belur math that i rarely visited unless i had some guest ~ once i went by boat ~ ofen i visited with some friends and would spend evening on the bridge, vivekananda setu ~ stuti ravi would sing and then again i would walk back to hostel ~ though i lived in home, but most of my wake hours, i was in the hostel and not even attending school
i became curious about ramakrishna when i was in baroda org ~ pijush da lent me several books of roman rollan christopher isherwood ... i started deeply studying aubrey menon jk upanishads and vivekachudamani ... ma had lot of bengali books of saints from india and also recording of ramakrishna's words ... i used to read when i was with her when in vacation.
i was not so much thrilled with his power of attracting people but astonished somewhat with the power of influence he had for many generations of bengalis. i lived near rkm in shillong and about three hours i used to spend there after prayers and arati only i returned home around 8 pm every evening. i was naturally inclined to puja since i have been acquainted with the same seeing my mother performing everyday. my parents were dikshita from ramthakur. but neither vivekananda or ramakrishna evoked any kind of bhakti in me. nor ramthakur.
today of course i shun any puja or demonstration of bhakti. i remember nanak asking babar ~ "when were you praying during namaz, i only noticed you were engaged in buying and selling horses in kabul market?"
I was kept away from songs and singing by ma. in recent years i find lot of depth and deep meanings in the songs and verses from rabindranath tagore. i definitely realize he was very near to the creator self. this days i spend many hours listening to music by two muslim women from bangladesh and i definitely hear them singing their prayers to creator self and not any other god or allah! during my many many hours at rkm i never felt all the prayers i heard had anything more than ritual. in my school too before the classes we used to do prayer; and that had nothing to do with learning knowledge or creativity. prayer time is always been fun time to do mischief!
rabindranath is far more successful than ramakrishna and rkm; for many decades rkm is the destination of robbers thieves looking for consolation of their conscience; and attracting greedy robbers cheats and scoundrels. bengalis today do not have any future for many centuries to come. ramakrishna was successful to create this bengal. you cannot love and respect ramakrishna at the sametime for this accomplishment!
though everybody in bengal heard about ramakrishna's public display of becoming statue in the midst of crowd, this fit none of his disciples able to demonstrates though they are exceeding 100 millions!! all of them like babar, selling buying horses and composing a reply to some conversation while performing puja or visiting babas and queuing before temples of specialists of fulfilment of all kinds of desires!
i could not even make any influence in my own family of four including me. despite the fact i tried to motivate my family to be respectful honest human being. they are not only disrespectful and dishonest but consider those are virtues! ramakrishna is a curse.
i have learnt because of my family ~ the answer to one question, i was searching all my life ~ who am i?
recently i read 1500 pages diary on ramakrishna by master da. 'who am i' the question to answer advised by ramakrishna in every page! that none of the followers ever asked once in their life including ramakrishna's chief disciple ~ vivekananda!
they all worship ramakrishna. i cannot believe ramakrishna was ever pleased with their worship. worship must be reminding him of his failure to teach any to answer the question ~ 'who am i?' while definitely gurudev rabindranath is indeed a greater teacher. he showed via his poems and many thousands of them ~ 'who one is and where one is located!'
all bengalis are hungry after money and sex worship ramakrishna for these reasons ~ he did not indulge in sex even when he was a family man and married. he did not touch money even when hungry and starving. he did not do puja even when he was suffering painful cancer and unable to eat. he did not ever pray. he never disowned his teacher ~ nagta, he called him, the naked one; and never even by mistake called him totapuri. all his disciple calls him ramakrishna and then do his puja! ha ha ha ha ...
hah hah hah
i have guru ~ myself ? ~ nangtar nangta .... i must not open my mouth think or write about me in reference or reverence! forever forbidden i cannot lie about me not allowed ~ i do not own
sometime some thoughts catch my fancy once or twice in a day ~ i recollect study and compose words
i got up after seven hours sleep and again went for another seven hours sleep ~ spent on boat ride on my thoughts without rowing or stirring my thought stream
last night i spent on lot of reading and listening to muhammad yunus but my concentration strayed ~ i remember one girl anari went and spent about a year with him creating solar lamp etc. ~ then i remembered bunker roy's barefoot college ~ then i wondered how india forever struggling with poverty did not benefit from grameen bank ~ india can benefit from no ideas ever from any one ~ gandhi rabindranath ramakrishna ... all have to fail not able to create happiness in people
i had to write on ramakrishna's failure
i came across ramakrishna while i was student in baranagar ~ often i would walk alone to ganges shore where dakshineswar was ~ kali mandir where for a while ramakrishna was priest ~ the room where ramakrishna lived still preserved as museum
across the river in the opposite bank was belur math that i rarely visited unless i had some guest ~ once i went by boat ~ ofen i visited with some friends and would spend evening on the bridge, vivekananda setu ~ stuti ravi would sing and then again i would walk back to hostel ~ though i lived in home, but most of my wake hours, i was in the hostel and not even attending school
i became curious about ramakrishna when i was in baroda org ~ pijush da lent me several books of roman rollan christopher isherwood ... i started deeply studying aubrey menon jk upanishads and vivekachudamani ... ma had lot of bengali books of saints from india and also recording of ramakrishna's words ... i used to read when i was with her when in vacation.
i was not so much thrilled with his power of attracting people but astonished somewhat with the power of influence he had for many generations of bengalis. i lived near rkm in shillong and about three hours i used to spend there after prayers and arati only i returned home around 8 pm every evening. i was naturally inclined to puja since i have been acquainted with the same seeing my mother performing everyday. my parents were dikshita from ramthakur. but neither vivekananda or ramakrishna evoked any kind of bhakti in me. nor ramthakur.
today of course i shun any puja or demonstration of bhakti. i remember nanak asking babar ~ "when were you praying during namaz, i only noticed you were engaged in buying and selling horses in kabul market?"
I was kept away from songs and singing by ma. in recent years i find lot of depth and deep meanings in the songs and verses from rabindranath tagore. i definitely realize he was very near to the creator self. this days i spend many hours listening to music by two muslim women from bangladesh and i definitely hear them singing their prayers to creator self and not any other god or allah! during my many many hours at rkm i never felt all the prayers i heard had anything more than ritual. in my school too before the classes we used to do prayer; and that had nothing to do with learning knowledge or creativity. prayer time is always been fun time to do mischief!
rabindranath is far more successful than ramakrishna and rkm; for many decades rkm is the destination of robbers thieves looking for consolation of their conscience; and attracting greedy robbers cheats and scoundrels. bengalis today do not have any future for many centuries to come. ramakrishna was successful to create this bengal. you cannot love and respect ramakrishna at the sametime for this accomplishment!
though everybody in bengal heard about ramakrishna's public display of becoming statue in the midst of crowd, this fit none of his disciples able to demonstrates though they are exceeding 100 millions!! all of them like babar, selling buying horses and composing a reply to some conversation while performing puja or visiting babas and queuing before temples of specialists of fulfilment of all kinds of desires!
i could not even make any influence in my own family of four including me. despite the fact i tried to motivate my family to be respectful honest human being. they are not only disrespectful and dishonest but consider those are virtues! ramakrishna is a curse.
i have learnt because of my family ~ the answer to one question, i was searching all my life ~ who am i?
recently i read 1500 pages diary on ramakrishna by master da. 'who am i' the question to answer advised by ramakrishna in every page! that none of the followers ever asked once in their life including ramakrishna's chief disciple ~ vivekananda!
they all worship ramakrishna. i cannot believe ramakrishna was ever pleased with their worship. worship must be reminding him of his failure to teach any to answer the question ~ 'who am i?' while definitely gurudev rabindranath is indeed a greater teacher. he showed via his poems and many thousands of them ~ 'who one is and where one is located!'
all bengalis are hungry after money and sex worship ramakrishna for these reasons ~ he did not indulge in sex even when he was a family man and married. he did not touch money even when hungry and starving. he did not do puja even when he was suffering painful cancer and unable to eat. he did not ever pray. he never disowned his teacher ~ nagta, he called him, the naked one; and never even by mistake called him totapuri. all his disciple calls him ramakrishna and then do his puja! ha ha ha ha ...
hah hah hah
i have guru ~ myself ? ~ nangtar nangta .... i must not open my mouth think or write about me in reference or reverence! forever forbidden i cannot lie about me not allowed ~ i do not own
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