how to dream abstract

my world is as imagined by me. my dream. both awake and carried over to sleep. i dream and i realize my dream or fail.

how do i imagine abstract  that is no way connected or imaginable in reality or its extension in my dream. abstract that can only be hinted in words as absent.

imagine what is before before. imagine what is after after. imagine what is now without imagination. imagine what is sleep without dream.
what is before time? what is after time? what is now?

how do you even refer to the same or name it? how do i sense the same?

i definitely cannot find out my deteriorating senses myself. i cannot find out if i saw or heard better yesterday. there is no recording and my senses are very deceptive. although i have learnt my dreams are always true as long as i believe in their permanency. i have already noted that i can dream many thousand years in milliseconds perhaps. i do see dreams every night. my spell of sleep is no more than 3 hours. i have very deceptive memory too. i cannot remember names words items ... any number of objects i knew till yesterday! the other day my eye doctor wished to video record my eye conditions telling me that she would be able to find later the changes.

i do not wish to predict. since all my predictions are infallible. After all i am the sole owner of my dreams and every characters or objects are my 101% compositions. i have not written them in collaboration.

i have in fact changed my writing style. my characters or objects, i allow them to have their own dream and i like to remain ignorant about their activities. i do not record them in my memory even, unlike my eye doctor. i am not curious about my last longest dream of 50 years ~ india. i don't even know anything about it. i see lot of buying packing phone calls taking place. it could be that my spouse is going to india where else? where else can she find people to talk to her for 16 hours a day. i do no longer participate to dream my characters' dream. my son too live in my house. i do not dream his dreams. i do not know what he is doing. it is not necessity for me to dream his dreams; same is for my daughter.

I do not dream any reader for my composition such as this and what possibly they might think. there is a large scale epidemic in my world; human places and desirables are disappearing fast. that touches only the brave, who does not seek any worldly object, nothing to do with one's life or living!

i create tools to create dreams ~ lust for no lust, within my dream; i am tired of dreaming same dream of world objects. measures and numbers.

me in dream is another dream. not that undreamable me showing me the dream. is not any dream of mine is blessing from that. am i not fortunate to receive it every moment. should that not be fresh new and never before seen. is that not so! am i not guaranteed! need i worry!

why i dream? i seek dream.

what is the benefit for me in my dream world by imaging abstract?

• knowledge all is dream and me inclusive ~ helpless
• the dreamer is not in the realm of dream ~ absolute 
• i am the absolute
• dream is dream is dream ...  dreams cannot be touched deleted or modified or unthought ~ divine and meaningless
• by virtue of being a dream ~ it has no future or worries 
• any action including no action is the best action ~ divine and meaningless

all without exception including my life present past or future is always 111% my joke not worthy of my reflection or repetition; one is enough stale second time

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