slavery

i am not going to analyse my character because i have seen me thoroughly in public eye and private eye many times already; and i do not see anything happening to me to change my attitude towards slavery.

i am not slave of any ideas propagated by anyone.

i may work and think hard towards a goal but i am not sure of success; i cannot predict. there is no way i can predict.

yes, i am working towards some goal possibly for whole of my life.

theoretically i know i am necessary and sufficient for my world. it is independent of what i think say or do. i am not supported or supportable by my world as a whole or partially by some component in my world. my world is completely my imagination and i did not take any help from anyone. if my world existed from beginning of time, then i am completely wrong about it. my world and that world has nothing in common.

what i am striving most, all my life, is to achieve the ability to not get involved with any happenings in the world;i do not like to indulge and remember. i do make statements in words. while i do not wish to make any sign of my involvement.

i cannot make this happen unless I am gifted this ability [by me the creator owner of my world]. i can only test me and be happy of my success.

i am 100% slave of that creator whom i call absolute since that only has no trace in my world, the spell cast around me.

i have no ability to influence that, for even one moment of my choice ~ this i know for 100% sure.

সে যতদিন আমাকে জ্বালাবে আমাকে জ্বলতে হবে
সে মুক্তি দিলেই আমার মুক্তি
কত দিন যত দিন তত দিন
তার কোনো যুক্তি নেই
সে সময়ের সৃষ্টি কর্তা

I do not see how can I possibly be misaligned with THAT who owns all and casts the spell on me. If i am terrified or pained ... there is no way that can I unsee or unsense the spell!

periodically about every week i come to the above realization that that i am nothing but sensitive epidermis of that own my universe and i am incapable of doing anything about my status.