sad

i have banished sad among all feelings from mylife.

i know i am the center and my world is balanced on me. and it is creation for my joy. my sadness surrounds me always like flies. these flies are carefully created to give me joys. my house my family my friends my books my habits my hobbies my body my money my health my wealth ....

joys are now sadness surrounding me. why ? there are disappearing and i still need them. money is disappearing. i cannot earn any more. i do not enjoy doing any job for money. i do not have health. my family is disappearing either by death or monetary reason. i cannot meet their expectations. my health is disappearing.

the disappearance of my joy is unstoppable.

i am engulfed enveloped with grief.

in order to be cheerful again i have no option but banish all.

i must have no need.

i do not recognize no flies as my necessary joy even if i created that once.

enough talk. i banished already sadness. if joy too has to go it is ok. along with expressions too. wow woh grrr ...

in words again i observe all appearance or disappearance without expression or any movement as is .....  nobody knowing ~ i am not definitely showing or telling ~ not even a fly sucker or insect sitting on me would know ~ i am absent not even expecting

sad or joy resolution or no resolution >>> i have to enjoy swallowing my creation and not excreting or vomiting ~ unassisted alone and no sympathiser and no witness either at this very moment and this cannot be delayed!!!