problem

long ago living alone on my first job at baroda i used to take long walk and while walking i would think of some problem of mathematical nature and generalize the same and solve it on my walk. it was my evening leisure time. i was not then looking for companion.

i had problem of people when i start seeking from people. i soon realized i do not have the natural ability for the same. I sought love then; i learned to love my isolation. i lived in an island of two hundred people with strange life and language. my evening and night leisure was limited to long walk around its perimeter touching the sea; till there was only darkness that covered uniformly land sea lighted by darkish sky with twinkling dome above.

i came to live in a metropolis called mumbai, then bombay. i was fathomless in sea of people. i have never imagined so many people at the same time and at the same place. i used to come out of my guest house at about midday and walk down the perimeter of sea called marine drive to a udipi restaurant called woodlands. eat my meal of rice dal and ghee. i would enter office. i was not really seeking any company. around late evening, i would again enter woodlands and wait for my rice dal and ghee. after food i would again walk down marine drive to my isolation at guest house.

if population is a problem i am not its solution.

i was not reading news or talking to people then; and did not know of any problems of living. requiring solution. all my problems melt by itself.

with my leisurely reading and many many hours of imaginations; i live in a world that burst out over populated; that they destroy each other and reduce to some stability and the same process repeats. all the population scientists have a tentative constant of maximum population limit for my world.

11 billion.

this does not mean a territory such as randhawa can be more than a few million. 

i played computer game; game of life invented by j h conway. long before i came across him; i spent many idle years of learning about human invention of numbers, infinities, and their orders. puzzles of infinity. undecidability of affirmative answer to any statement made that presumes existence and acceptance of numbers.

numbers don't really exist beyond me.

a statement needs a language to describe that can be understood same by machine of simple design. two person acting as the same machine should expectedly come to the same conclusion. that is understanding; or communication between two individuals.

this assumption is source of misunderstanding. individuals are not infallible machine. even machines are not infallible.

i do not wish any to understand me.

is population a problem? if so, it has its own solution without anybody's solution. and it is not formula that needing to be discovered or understood by any.

problem, say this one, described in words here, shrinks and vanishes all by itself