stray thoughts

ramakrishna started as assistant pujari but became head pujari at dakshineswar after his brother's death
after his self realization he could not continue to be pujari at the temple
the job went to hriday his brothers son
hriday was very ambitious and wished to eliminate ramakrishna from high esteem he was already saddled
day and night he would shadow ramakrishna to find some faults by which he could destroy his reputation and purity
the situation was extreme
according to ramakrishna he often stood at the edge of river ganga and stopped from suicide
anyway due to his own mistaken greediness he was asked to leave without notice
ramakrishna was mortally relieved from the imprisonment of hriday

i am not in prison of india today but i live prisoner of my family and i am trying escape all my life from my in laws
i have not been able to escape my family
i am not dead but they are foremost wish is i am dead
they believe i am sitting on some gold eggs
one of course is quite visible ~ my house
it is their source of income
i bear all the expense even when i am retired and not earning
the expense is 3000 per month
it is being put for business use for theirs and they don't care that i have need for the house facilities
such as kitchen when i need to prepare my own food

i am stray dog causing nuisance and my in laws are planning lot of take over plans
they wish to come here at any pretexts and i was asked sponsor
their greed too is extremes
they have joint accounts and possess flat bought by my wife
i pay not only taxes but safeguard my families business interest
they would make unthinkable relationship with me and my wide parent relations most are dead now
but they are exploring every avenue of success
they are engaged in enquiring with neighbors etc. how to make the coup
my neighbors are now alert they warned me and avoid my family now

my case is similar to ramakrishna waiting for divine intervention

i have written to both consulate and local authority telling my situation and asking them to stop use my residence for business

without any external help i am on my own
i am completely withdrawn
i know quite confidently that for reasons out of control i may not relieved from my problem
but they may not able touch me or throw me out of my house
although my in laws have tried all method of false evidence insinuations similar to rss techniques but was with very limited success
my family by their own conduct and behavior are quite isolated even among indian community here
who are 100% willingly to do wrong when comes to self benefit
someway my family is not able garner support or talk deal
main objective is to know what money possession i may have
so that they can talk the deal
it was required that my in laws should come here and be witness to any misbehavior and be criminal witness
i am opposed to the same even though possibly my family is sponsoring their visa to come here

anyhow i know i cannot quit me even when all have quit

this brings to second part of my thoughts my earlier domicile country that i vowed never to return under no circumstances

i make some daily tours of couple websites unrelated to news but personal postings in social media to assess mental torture people of india is subjected to who have some conscience honesty left in them
they are very few of course

if any one who does not believe and practice ganesha idol drinks milk declared enemy number of one and shall be removed from living within indian territory in next 5 years

i have to live with similar stray thoughts since i am not ready to quit my existence and intend to witness my pyre