wealth

frankly i am very ignorant about nature of people but i have been meeting people and knowing people through out my life. i used to make conjecture but i stopped making conjectures now. i also do not believe in karma and dharma as such. i used to think or believe in fate; i don't. some say people never change after age 21. i have changed totally. i doubt me most. i cannot predict. one nature for me has not changed ever is my inability to compromise. i withdraw at the cost of ruining my dream relationship without making a single word or another attempt. my respect for truth
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"man is bound by wealth while wealth is bound to none" these were exact same words repeated by bhishma drona kripa, penned by vyasa, for their service to duryodhan, ill gotter of wealth. it may be personal truth need not be universal. economists expected to be biased. was not chanakya? arthaniti! while universal is dharma ~ snake bites but it has no choice. unbiased are rare phenomenon. yudhisthir. dharmaraj. other biases are intellectual, professional physical sports etc. individuals ignore all consideration of relationship belonging career ethics or moral for engagement
is wealth fiction of mind ~ i do not know
assuming learned experienced elders - bhishma drona kripa were speaking truth, wealth is never servant; should we helplessly serve wealth even when it is being used for dishonest end
this defies logic since the wealth, i am after if i stop chasing, is going to disappear immediately when dishonest dies or as soon as i stop earning

will i be serving forever another wealthy - honest or dishonest; or retire!!!
if wealthy is not always dishonest - i wonder - unless one is 100% cheat cannot be wealthy or gain advantage at exponentially rate over time ... and become billionaire .... they write their rules of engagement for exploiting all around them the community organization and society
there is no way one can be honest and wealthy AT THE SAME TIME
impossible
wealth is measure of failure as honest and fair - however it is not sin or crime - wealth is self deception - wealth never exists in reality but in one's mind ~ it is a mental disease - cheating every one of one's own world, one cannot avoid burning in no moment ~ no cure
as for me - i take up professional assignment anything to do with computing mathematical statistical and automation unhesitatingly even not knowing the problem area. i enjoy and i am blind to the employer and its intention. i do not ever seek to know their motive. i have come into grief for the same. but even while i worked, i never did any thieving or bribing or got paid or availed any non-professional engagement. i promise and i do my best to keep my promise. i always insist on total and full payment for my engagement. often i do not receive the same. i quit such association forever. i have quit may be 100 times even with my blood relations. suffering unbearable pain of disappointments

i regard family relationship is not business relationship for profit and loss or wealth; i prefer no relationship instead when i find out
i do not compromise
is it my dharma? was i destined to know all is me? and i cannot be any other. bad is 100% me. good is 100% me. bad is dishonesty for me. i do not engage in words or action. i know.
is this innocence? am i innocent - now at the age of 70? my dharma ~ i do not know.....

BUT I WELCOME GRIEF OR LOSS ~ it is relief - it is truly divine sensation of coolness after some parts burns in me ~ fuel no more - no more smoldering. divine relief.

flammable is always finite. vanishing sparks. burning is forgetting memories