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this story is again from mahabharata a purana keep bubbling in me whenever i am idle; i am idle always and without ideas

i scan internet and others site for ideas
i am fortunate to be in time of facebook and google since they have given me means to be myself ~ idle
i fear nights and my sleep and horrible dream of being living in shit made by me and keep producing without end that i cannot clear ever

what an exit plan from planet earth without no respect no expectation of seeing a human face of understanding

result of my antagonism of dalai lama and even mother teresa ~ mother of all destitutes

i saw the hell i am in and living in it after many hours now ~ i shall be ever since as long as living ~ in sleep in dream in awake

i was asking what truth is their in scriptures - ramayana mahabharata gita upanishads that devoured for 70 years now

if even one sentence is believable or remotely possible

is it true ~ this trap of reality is inescapable only through hell into abyss ~ no sky no air no light no change same always

no escape

dharma is that true ~ one is born into that determines all karma thereafter and there is no option to opt out ~ knowingly one one has to embrace the hell abyss and ultimate dishonor

vyasa gave the exact same words in the lips of three heroes ~ bhishma drona kripa  when yudhisthir approached them for blessings before the war of dharma

win is yours ~ you alone know all is meaningless ~ meaning of all is illusion
however i cannot quit
i am servant of my dharma
i am bound by my meaning ~ অর্থ ~ servant of my past deeds ~ obligation responsibility honor money commitment words ~ trap of illusion



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