Snake

It is a very long snake and very old snake. It is at least as old as me or more.

My past that never dies and threatening to throttle me and I am scared even though I am committed to my inaction.

But where is me? Who is me? snake or absolute?
Past or that stainless absent creator of my past 
Do I need do anything at all about my past?
Can I do anything at all? From when? How?
What is measure of my knowledge? it is most unfortunate that I cannot keep quiet. I hiss i stand up on my spine and strike with my become to kill. Whom?

My hallucinations ~ impossible to rid me off and be thyself ~ so near but so far untouchable distance away.

খারাপ ভালোর সীমানা ছাড়িয়ে অপেক্ষা অপেক্ষা আর অপেক্ষা পার্থিব আমার শেষ নেই
বোধদয় রথ আসে না আমার ভাগ্যে সর্গ নেই
সাপের খোলস হয়েই চির কাল এই পৃথিবীতে বাস আর আমার ফোঁস ফোঁস

নিঃশব্দতা নেই ~ বাসনা ভালো হওয়ার বাসনা ~ যদিও জানি আমার ভালো হাওয়া অসম্ভব

আমি খারাপের সীমানা ছাড়িয়ে আমি 

Time measure from dream to dream ~ hallucination is 7 days ~ hallucination to silence is 3 hours

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