words pushed ashore
i happen to be the only witness and reader of my verse written in vanishing ink
no only there is none to corroborate my story but i can be sued in any justice system if i ever try to claim authenticity of claim
my logical mind does not seem convinced to apply all my information to predict next moment next excitement or my disappearance in the role of witness
in the absence of any reason for any occurrence of event i cannot assume written words of others and cannot build them into my machine as infallible
i leave that to imaginative minds of astrologer to predict future of my world tomorrow a year hence or decades from now at the time of end of my world
i have lost dependendability to my world in short or long term is dependable unless i am determined to fool myself and addicted to feel good no matter what
the reason for feeling good is the reason for not feeling good
i am composed with some bias that is not in my world
i have tried my best to rid me of my version of the store that is not available anywhere in the world. i ma again and again claim its authenticity having perceived in person but that does not make it acceptable even to my physician and he would recommend test for or declare treatment ~ erasure of my memory
i realize that i have to live without another soul ever to believe in me
i have not only blasted my world to dust and there goes me not available to me even for reference encyclopedia
what is my worth? i am not of any worth. n one is willing to consult me or buy my story. now or any time in future.
i frequently remember my brother kamal. his siblings were to relieve him of his possession and giving puja for his life to depart. it was immaterial how much loved and did for them without any selfishness.
this morning i got a dream where in he was lying down beside me and asking one single question: are you ready to depart this world right this moment and not ask for time to finish some unfinished plan.
no reason. almighty is all knowing and he shares my progress report directly with me. choice is mine how long do i wish to continue. or i accept your wish is mine keep me as long as i serve your purpose as your purpose.
no only there is none to corroborate my story but i can be sued in any justice system if i ever try to claim authenticity of claim
my logical mind does not seem convinced to apply all my information to predict next moment next excitement or my disappearance in the role of witness
in the absence of any reason for any occurrence of event i cannot assume written words of others and cannot build them into my machine as infallible
i leave that to imaginative minds of astrologer to predict future of my world tomorrow a year hence or decades from now at the time of end of my world
i have lost dependendability to my world in short or long term is dependable unless i am determined to fool myself and addicted to feel good no matter what
the reason for feeling good is the reason for not feeling good
i am composed with some bias that is not in my world
i have tried my best to rid me of my version of the store that is not available anywhere in the world. i ma again and again claim its authenticity having perceived in person but that does not make it acceptable even to my physician and he would recommend test for or declare treatment ~ erasure of my memory
i realize that i have to live without another soul ever to believe in me
i have not only blasted my world to dust and there goes me not available to me even for reference encyclopedia
what is my worth? i am not of any worth. n one is willing to consult me or buy my story. now or any time in future.
i frequently remember my brother kamal. his siblings were to relieve him of his possession and giving puja for his life to depart. it was immaterial how much loved and did for them without any selfishness.
this morning i got a dream where in he was lying down beside me and asking one single question: are you ready to depart this world right this moment and not ask for time to finish some unfinished plan.
no reason. almighty is all knowing and he shares my progress report directly with me. choice is mine how long do i wish to continue. or i accept your wish is mine keep me as long as i serve your purpose as your purpose.
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