can i be slave?

i cannot break the vow of silence
i cannot break my vow of no memory
i cannot break my vow of no expectation
i cannot break my vow of innocence

i cannot break my vow of perceiving all without exception with no further imagination.

Can anyone help me keep my vow?

 dawn of intelligence : 

Who is in charge of me? Weather? My body? My finance? My mind? My family? My country? My acquaintances? Law? Police? Court? Regulation? People? My oaths? My ancestors? Constitution? Established norms? Opinions? Who is my boss? Me or some other? Am I slave of my past or my future or my present?

Can I be slave ? 
Can i be dictated my words love passion feelings actions or thoughts?
Do I have the right to be me and me alone and not defined and remain not defined? Do I not have the right to be mad and total insane and not having approval of any and do whatever I may please and not approved by any? 

am I forced always to do? Do I have no mind of my own? Am I robot ? Can I not be outside my world and under no influence of my world? Do I need? Do I need someone to report? Why cannot i be my boss? Do I need to ask? Why? Do I need to know? Why? Do I need more preparation to be me? Why I cannot be me just now and hereafter? What stops me from being me?
  • If I cannot be self sufficient now when can be self sufficient and how
  • Who is going to make me self sufficient
  • if i cannot keep quiet who is going to silent me
  • if i cannot walk who can make me walk
  • if i cannot work who can make me work
  • if i cannot imagine who can make me imagine
  • if i cannot cure me who can cure me
  • if i cannot die who can kill me
  • if i cannot do who can make me do
  • if i cannot pay who can make me pay
  • if i cannot see who can make me see
  • if i cannot think who can make me think
  • If I cannot stop writing who can make me stop 
  • if i cannot be free who can make me free 
  • if i cannot feel can anyone make me feel
সবার উপরে আমি সত্য আমার উপরে কেহ নেই 

If I cannot make me truth or absolute or Brahman who else can make me truth or absolute or brahman?

I am not seeking if seeking makes me a slave.

i am not slave. i cannot be enslaved. i cannot even be slave of me. i need never follow any of me and never remember or save me or discover me or repeat me or keep my promise. I simply cannot be me even partially not even for a moment not even hypothetically.

what is impossible? i alone know what is impossible ~ it is impossible for me to be slave now then or ever






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