liberty

sakyamuni buddha

what is his contribution that i am affected by him after 2500 years?

i have read some story of jataka and his early life of prince married to two beautiful sisters to keep him settled at home in luxuries and love. i also read about his first encounter with realities of the world ~ hunger disease senility and death. them he did not encounter in that short span of life of his youth within palace boundaries.

and he had to leave his home ~ in search of true home in the wide open world.

i have not read anything from sakyamuni himself. vyasa valmiki shankaracharya wrote volume of poetry essays and composition and even distributed among people without knowledge of alphabets. they were brilliant and captivated me from the age of two as soon as i was speaking words.

but what did shakyamuni gave to the world that is unforgettable by the world after 2500 years? even i am now 70 affected.

as far as i know they are two symbols that can be seen in every statue of sakyamuni. he did not establish any religion. he did not utter a word of philosophy of god or heaven or hope. in the statue of every buddha i see a palm up and the other palm where two fingers are touching the tips on display.

it took me long time to decipher them. they were haunting me day and nights for many decades.

symbol for nothing. there is nothing to expect. there is nothing to believe or assume.

symbol of mirror. you see what you believe. you believe what you see. you believe she loves you. she indeed loves you. you are never wrong. does she exists? you cannot know. you are only seeing what you believe. mirror only echoes reflects.

my world is my mirror. all is me i see.

i also learnt from reading and not from seeing it myself ~ a word i came across in everydays of my life in india. i am told it is Pali word and later adopted into sanskrit.

Bhiksu.

apparently sakyamuni coined this name for those who stuck around with him. living in the proximity of him was living in peace. they apparently could not stay away from him. it is my belief. the meaning of bhiksu is 'i mock you' ~ i am image of you. he also gave them an empty bowl as their only possession; and no other words. when any abandoned his or her bowl - he or she became bodhisatya. indistinguishable.

apparently the people surrounding him got is not shiksha ~ learning but diksha ~ दीक्षा - a direction to stop piling or collecting or growing or assuming. it is reversal of all learning.

later on when buddhism became a culture or religion. inverted bowl became the image to worship. we have stupa.

empty bowl is mirror image of unfillable bowel of who have shelter. though bulging it is never filled ~ always empty.

Stupa ~ pile ~ memory ~ useless meaningless irrelevant learning

with shiksha we expect and predict
with diksha we are unexpecting unbiased unrestricted

no words no language no expression i received a communication that transcends time
i learnt from his statues scattered all over my world
i have collected them from anywhere and everywhere ~ bazaars streets airport internet and wherever, whenever they caught my attention

without medication meditation laser reading practicing slowly my cataract clouded vision was healed
i learned to see my world in the light of unforgettable knowledge:

i am all ~ no exception 
i am unbiased ~ no exception
i am incapable of making any exception
i am home wherever i am ~ i cannot leave home