citizen

i came to usa after age of 50

i did not vote while i was in india

i did not wish to be a citizen of usa and always thought that i shall go back to india

my first trip to india was in may 2012 for less than 2 weeks

i found it is unlivable

there is no society as such
all cultivate and practice intolerance and self benefit at the expense of anyone and everyone and the means of doing is deplorable
lying cheating false evidence false affidavit ganging up and storytelling
one would not mind invoking god in every deed for their self achievements
fasting praying group praying puja false paper false diagnosis propaganda
people plug their mind and do not mind death of their trusting siblings .... hurting anyone is very normal

i was totally knocked down
my all assumptions of kin and relations were shattered
my brother died and i became citizen of usa

i did not have any friends in usa and i needed none
i came here knowingly to face whatever since i was incapable to provide for my family by honest professional work while in india

i did participate in the first election in usa as a citizen
by then i lived 16 years and i have seen my fellow immigrants from india socially and professionally
i was horrified that even in a foreign country they are pursuing the same harmful practice of dishonesty cheating bribing and not giving even 1% of any honest work
they openly and loudly proclaim they have come for one purpose only to benefit themselves

my was further disturbed to see my family abandoning me joining them and practicing the same deplorable practice
i withdrew myself from my family
i could not have imagined this ever in my life

in my community everyone except one supported Clinton in 2016
often in every gathering i was pulled out and asked why i am not supporting Clinton and their cause
by now i know that it is impossible to bring any sense to drug addicts
i started not attending any social functions puja picnics ...
if ever i am forced
i would carry a magazine sit far away or go to sleep

after the election i am going through illness from indigestion
media news and continuous attack on governance by the elected president
the president was elected for his agenda and now media and democrats are against whatever he wished to accomplish
and they have the money and power

i have become silent watcher
it is distressing to read paper news or watch tv
the entire preoccupation is trump administration and nothing else
no business no industry no science no technology no exploration no invention no discovery
only share market and mobile and bazar

for a while i tried to give my idlebrain some expansion into india
i have withdrawn immediately
language of news and politicians
i cannot read with my own eyes or hear with my own ears