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i am the most unrespectable person i know.

i have tried to earn respect and i was unable.

it is my feature words and wealth ~ i was not respectable to any men or women.

i tried to follow many who have been success in their and i uniquely became unsuccessful in my life.

this my private writing and i do not wish to create sympathy in anyone.

i am suffering from ailments. i cannot fund 4 adults in my home. i have asked for help to bear the expense of my household. 15000 per annum. i got my alms of 800 this month with rebuke from my spouse. i cannot get accustomed to her filthy words and stealing attitude.

others left home. buddha chaitanya but i am stuck. i am old and sick and poor.

not earning. there is no future for me. it is conceived by my family that it is desirable that i am dead and then they are better off with my savings that they cannot lay their hands on as long as i am alive.

this is the treatment i deserve and earned.

i must remain mute since i am not qualified to live with them.

i frankly do not like to see the morning sun of tomorrow.

buddha to become in any life in future is pipe dream.

i do not like to get up in the morning as me.