gone were the days
gone were the days when leaves mattered
two tiny sprouting out of the seed
it was necessary to devote life on them two and the life depend on them
i could grow my root and stem and waited for more leaves and more juice to suck from soil
now i am many thousands years old
my roots have discovered the eternal supply of juice reserve
my branches spread all the sky
i have uncountable leaves and home for all creatures of the world
do i care about one leaf one branch and its survival even if i try and try
can i care if the leaf is malnourished and attacked
have not my ability of doing has ended and so is my senses
can i care who is eating my fruits and gaining weight and how fruits are wasted and who is taking shelter and for what reason ...
what is truth and what is false
who is truth do i know
i knew once but i do not know now ~ i must wait till i don't know before creating again ~ i must leave the tree from my memory ~ i have no alternative to i don't know
i cannot be blinded by the tree or my world ~ i must remove my cataract and cannot under hellucination however much is the reward my old world ~ i do not like to live in my old world although i have no alternative otherwise ~ i cannot borrow words no more from no language
i must create a new world that has nothing to do with my old world and any more old worlds i may create now or in future
there is only one listener viewer perceiver and it is none but me ~ my world must not be the same world anymore ~ my world has no meaning from my old world if i have to live this moment and i have no message or sentence or thought from my past
do i have any option but silent and not erase any sentences composed so far ~ can I be anyone other than a seer for any more moment in my life if there is
and where else i can seat and see without getting involved but the banyan tree i am abandoned?
and what i have to see?
lies and lies and lies always liars liars liars always ~ what is expected from me ?
seeing and seeing and seeing ..... till my old world is forgotten forever ... i cannot remember even if try my best....
however this remains truth despite all my disillusions ~ i am ultimate boss without any other boss and all is always my imagination and has no existence as such ~ and know this and cannot forget even if suffering alzheimer and have no memory ~ i cannot be otherwise
i am the rule without rule - all inclusive and lacking nothing and incapable of eliminating any ~ i definitely can expect but who would give me what i dream ~ there is none none none besides me
উপরওয়ালা কেও যখন নেই এবং কখনোই হবে না গাছটা যখন ছাঁরতেই হবে তখন ছাড়লাম। যদি এর পরেও আবার গাছে চড়ে বসি; সেটা আমার মাথার দোষ; এই রোগের ত কোনো অষুধ নেই। হবেও না। তাই বলে আবার গাছে চড়াতো যাবো কি? স্মৃতি শক্তি বাড়াবার কি অসুধ খাই?
two tiny sprouting out of the seed
it was necessary to devote life on them two and the life depend on them
i could grow my root and stem and waited for more leaves and more juice to suck from soil
now i am many thousands years old
my roots have discovered the eternal supply of juice reserve
my branches spread all the sky
i have uncountable leaves and home for all creatures of the world
do i care about one leaf one branch and its survival even if i try and try
can i care if the leaf is malnourished and attacked
have not my ability of doing has ended and so is my senses
can i care who is eating my fruits and gaining weight and how fruits are wasted and who is taking shelter and for what reason ...
what is truth and what is false
who is truth do i know
i knew once but i do not know now ~ i must wait till i don't know before creating again ~ i must leave the tree from my memory ~ i have no alternative to i don't know
i cannot be blinded by the tree or my world ~ i must remove my cataract and cannot under hellucination however much is the reward my old world ~ i do not like to live in my old world although i have no alternative otherwise ~ i cannot borrow words no more from no language
i must create a new world that has nothing to do with my old world and any more old worlds i may create now or in future
there is only one listener viewer perceiver and it is none but me ~ my world must not be the same world anymore ~ my world has no meaning from my old world if i have to live this moment and i have no message or sentence or thought from my past
do i have any option but silent and not erase any sentences composed so far ~ can I be anyone other than a seer for any more moment in my life if there is
and where else i can seat and see without getting involved but the banyan tree i am abandoned?
and what i have to see?
lies and lies and lies always liars liars liars always ~ what is expected from me ?
seeing and seeing and seeing ..... till my old world is forgotten forever ... i cannot remember even if try my best....
however this remains truth despite all my disillusions ~ i am ultimate boss without any other boss and all is always my imagination and has no existence as such ~ and know this and cannot forget even if suffering alzheimer and have no memory ~ i cannot be otherwise
i am the rule without rule - all inclusive and lacking nothing and incapable of eliminating any ~ i definitely can expect but who would give me what i dream ~ there is none none none besides me
উপরওয়ালা কেও যখন নেই এবং কখনোই হবে না গাছটা যখন ছাঁরতেই হবে তখন ছাড়লাম। যদি এর পরেও আবার গাছে চড়ে বসি; সেটা আমার মাথার দোষ; এই রোগের ত কোনো অষুধ নেই। হবেও না। তাই বলে আবার গাছে চড়াতো যাবো কি? স্মৃতি শক্তি বাড়াবার কি অসুধ খাই?
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