Warning

Google has been warning me that my blogs shall be no more in a few days. I write publicly and I cannot be private in my world. My feelings are known and distributed in the sky and I cannot hide.

i have no place to hide.

Winter is not leaving. I shiver in my room. The temperature is above 75 and my palms are burning. I get up several times in a day. last night rather in last 24 hours i was awake barely 10 hours. I skipped several meals. I skipped insulin. I am trying to find the reason for burning. too many cups of tea! I am skipping that too. Going to bed early.

I got up several times but last was when it was nearly 10. took sugar reading and insulin. i wish to put end to my feet burning. daytime, i am good.

couple of nights ago I talked to kanti and sayed. i heard kanti has some pallet count problem and she cannot sleep at night. i remember chhorda's pallet problem and chemotherapy and death. god was good to him. what a combination madhu namu amu and national medical college gang's diagnosis of blood cancer. recently joya's brother gynecologist visited my home without my permission. 

i was burning in my own home. i remember my situation that of ramakrishna contemplating suicide standing at the bank of ganges because of his nephew hriday. day and night i suffer from joya's family to ruin my living.

they are planning to take over my house in USA. joya has done business taken all the money and ruined my living but she did not stop. the family is planning to come here without my permission.

I have to put a stop. they are after me with their foul language and people to get to my tax filing etc. they are very brilliant with forging signature etc. they are trying to get visa from US consulate perhaps. But they cannot be stopped. They are very bold with Joya's patronage. I have witnessed in my very married life that they can go to all extent by plantining criminal evidence and corroborating that with witnesses. This is the reason I cannot allow them to my house to step in. 

I have an ace that they can never trump.

Maya ~ illusion. thus i have the support that no force of the universe can defeat. 

TRUTH PREVAILS AND ALWAYS

Ramakrishna did not have to commit suicide ~ Hriday was eliminated from his life and prohibited to come near ramakrishna while he was alive.

why and how ~ mystery ~ akasha ?