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this morning i got very agitated with a dream.
i have gone to purchase a thing magic piece of electronics with 10 gb storage with various other capabilities for wireless communication. i do not know why i needed it. in fact i was intending buy one more for chhorda. i had to ask him. I shared with the seller my IDs etc. when I came back to him, he has lost all my Id and credit cards etc.
I was very agitated. not so much to lose my temper or balance. It was about 10 am. I needed to do few morning chores plus check up my sugar.
The dream showed my reasons for excitement - my needs : my credentials, my finance, my urge for communication, my attachment with past, my family, my considerations for others.
my status: good news is that the dream excited me however this did not throw me off balance - shouting and fuming and trying to reestablish my control when i find none and nothing have any concern for my reasons for agitation. I did not try to make my presence felt.
i checked my sugar. it is normal. i ate my breakfast. I am getting ready for other chores. making lunch taking bath making tea before going for oil change.
urgencies are not so urgent. they can wait. i am not that upset with loss of identity finance future kins friends health and not bothered about my life continuity among presumed living.
my progress report. i accept record and file. in another 45 days this filing cabinet shall disappear. I am told by Google.
i do not know what i shall be doing if i continue to live and dream. where shall i record? where shall i publish. how do i keep my self in circulation among the livings.
last night i phoned mejo boudi. i was not following what she was talking. it did not matter. it mattered for her that she is in circulation. she keeps writing and also writes books of stories. she is happy that some body has taken the responsibility of keeping her in circulation.
kanti keeps herself in circulation doing community service.
who would keep me in circulation when i am gone? facebook? no! they have removed chhorda's account. there is no place for dead in this planet. only living has the right to think whatever like and practice.
i do not have urge of vyasa shankara valmiki buddha christ or mohammed to keep in circulation.
i have gone to purchase a thing magic piece of electronics with 10 gb storage with various other capabilities for wireless communication. i do not know why i needed it. in fact i was intending buy one more for chhorda. i had to ask him. I shared with the seller my IDs etc. when I came back to him, he has lost all my Id and credit cards etc.
I was very agitated. not so much to lose my temper or balance. It was about 10 am. I needed to do few morning chores plus check up my sugar.
The dream showed my reasons for excitement - my needs : my credentials, my finance, my urge for communication, my attachment with past, my family, my considerations for others.
my status: good news is that the dream excited me however this did not throw me off balance - shouting and fuming and trying to reestablish my control when i find none and nothing have any concern for my reasons for agitation. I did not try to make my presence felt.
i checked my sugar. it is normal. i ate my breakfast. I am getting ready for other chores. making lunch taking bath making tea before going for oil change.
urgencies are not so urgent. they can wait. i am not that upset with loss of identity finance future kins friends health and not bothered about my life continuity among presumed living.
my progress report. i accept record and file. in another 45 days this filing cabinet shall disappear. I am told by Google.
i do not know what i shall be doing if i continue to live and dream. where shall i record? where shall i publish. how do i keep my self in circulation among the livings.
last night i phoned mejo boudi. i was not following what she was talking. it did not matter. it mattered for her that she is in circulation. she keeps writing and also writes books of stories. she is happy that some body has taken the responsibility of keeping her in circulation.
kanti keeps herself in circulation doing community service.
who would keep me in circulation when i am gone? facebook? no! they have removed chhorda's account. there is no place for dead in this planet. only living has the right to think whatever like and practice.
i do not have urge of vyasa shankara valmiki buddha christ or mohammed to keep in circulation.
I definitely was intending to be absent from people. I am summarily a failure. i remain attracted to my presumed acquaintances even when they are absent in my life. I cannot practice me.
silence absence. again and again i make my appearance. addiction to words people living.
silence absence. again and again i make my appearance. addiction to words people living.
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