dawn

instinctively i followed my dreams and often interpreting them wrongly.

most important dreams are nightmare when i wake up sweating with fright with impulse to prevent such dreams in future.

however i dream them again. it is logical to review to analysis since my analysis not correct.

it take long time from my experience to be comfortable with unknown.

one may say it is natural to fear death.

what is natural about it?

it is as such the fear of unknown.

it takes time to digest a phenomena not witnessed so far.

it is not digestible at least for me. I cannot digest that i am without senses for time to come.

although i noticed my absence perhap just prelude to the nightmare - i am trapped in an unknown and as far i logically think there is no escape from unknown.

a scenario of quake or mud avalanche the earth's surface is rapidly changing and i can never conceivably come back to any known and familiar past - place and people.  i wake up - no solution to this problem is not a solution or remedy.

however it is the remedy

i must accept unacceptable unexplainable ~ i do not know.

is there any reason to be afraid of tomorrow ~ i surely don't know, so much so i have to assume and live a hypothetical tomorrow today?

there is no security or repetition of known in fact known never makes an appearance

dead is forever gone