my battle with my health
I saw a film - pulp fiction and have not digested it yet. I cannot see any more films for now. i am haunted. i even postponed my phone calls to india. last night i called uttam and mejo boudi to find out what they know about those i knew.
uttam did not look up amitava i urged him to do. he gave some excuse. he sent me parcel of clothes - my royal bengali dresses i would love to wear in US I already have a collection. the parcel is still at kolkata head office.
mejo boudi informed me about her birthday celebration. chandra is in kolkata and her returned is postponed because of omoo and her illness. she has viral plus all complications high blood sugar two operations on spines and inability to walk straight. a prisoner. i observed health can be curse.
everybody has this curse. i too have it. no matter my standpoint i visited a physician for no reason but personal to find out what is wrong with me. I had found out about my high blood sugar. I have changed my diet entirely and my habits. I do not like to consume what i cannot digest.
Mejo boudi observed watching sonada she learnt what is the agony to be supported by others for your life continuance. I observed I do not know what is in my store. I only will that i shall be able to reach myself the funeral home when time comes and not carried by others. I again talked about didima and her strong will from renunciation. what she learnt from reading gita days after days. she learnt not to suffer loss. loss is too easy for her. I remember seeing her once i traveled with chhorda and ma. i was surprised that she was total blind. but then she was as bright as ever. next time visited her she had perfect vision. she could read and write and do all her works unaided.
I do not phone chandra anymore. it is about six months or more that i stopped talking to her. one reason alone. under the circumstances she should her own strength.
mejo boudi as usual requested me many times to phone her before i hung up.
uttam did not look up amitava i urged him to do. he gave some excuse. he sent me parcel of clothes - my royal bengali dresses i would love to wear in US I already have a collection. the parcel is still at kolkata head office.
mejo boudi informed me about her birthday celebration. chandra is in kolkata and her returned is postponed because of omoo and her illness. she has viral plus all complications high blood sugar two operations on spines and inability to walk straight. a prisoner. i observed health can be curse.
everybody has this curse. i too have it. no matter my standpoint i visited a physician for no reason but personal to find out what is wrong with me. I had found out about my high blood sugar. I have changed my diet entirely and my habits. I do not like to consume what i cannot digest.
Mejo boudi observed watching sonada she learnt what is the agony to be supported by others for your life continuance. I observed I do not know what is in my store. I only will that i shall be able to reach myself the funeral home when time comes and not carried by others. I again talked about didima and her strong will from renunciation. what she learnt from reading gita days after days. she learnt not to suffer loss. loss is too easy for her. I remember seeing her once i traveled with chhorda and ma. i was surprised that she was total blind. but then she was as bright as ever. next time visited her she had perfect vision. she could read and write and do all her works unaided.
I do not phone chandra anymore. it is about six months or more that i stopped talking to her. one reason alone. under the circumstances she should her own strength.
mejo boudi as usual requested me many times to phone her before i hung up.
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