i am not

i cannot turn my grief into happiness or disappear

I cannot accept unacceptable

i prefer and welcome death

i cannot compromise

i am not broad minded

i cannot change

i am incompatible

i cannot change my world

i cannot even look at my world without change
it is impossible
i am too weak


I cannot be cornered or caught or slaved into doing
my escape route is ever open
I embrace my absence
and not me or my world
in silence