Fulfillment

What do I expect of my expectations?

I am asking myself this question after 41 years. Most relevant to my hunger thirst love satisfaction to my mortal desires for recognitions from one or more people.

I am not fully retired. I wish to make a largish sunroom where I would like to spend most of time - retired. Looking at sky. Doing some painting reading writing and sleeping. I even looked up some telescope to buy.

Already zinia has left. Soon soham shall also leave. I suppose joya shall spend her time in India.

with or without people i like to be alone with myself.

I know what I can learn in infinite time or life times. I have no desire for the same to go through. I have done the induction using ZFC. However I am addicted to infinity. It lingers on my mind. when I am absolute with total calmness without muscles when I am immersed in painting hues. I still remember night sky absolutely brilliant in the darkness of himalayas

unthinkable beauty of gem filled glittering darkness