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why i dream so often of demolition squad and that i can not find my home
watching parts unknown it was same dream anthony bourdain frequently dreamt
it was his nightmares
he is in a long corridor of a luxury hotel and not finding his room
he at long last opens a door at the end of the corridor to find a strange butcher (?) with salvador dali mustache facing him
tony committed suicide in a hotel hanging last year in july
leaving parts unknown unfinished
the last episode was on bhutan
bhutan promotes highest happiness content as a country as a whole

i wished to talk about my teachers in my life
my life i have recently from my dreams is without content
my life no matter how long is just empty
without content
my teacher is my dreams
as a child is used to dream me like fish being baited from sky to be plucked out into sky
when i became young adult
i learnt to jump and jump till i took off to sky
later i used to dream showing off my ability to fly to all terrestrial
now a days i am frequented with dream of my wasted in ISI without learning anything
i missed all classes and i do not even met my teachers
i8 have not attended any examinations
i am thoroughly failed myself
it is waste of my life

i have recently learnt that i cannot learn ever anything in my life
length of my life tenure and number of lives besides
there were many many teachers
some belonged to ISI where i missed most of my classes
there i learnt the most valuable learning from my life
i cannot learn

My life's first teacher was my brother kamal
he was my teacher right from my birth
i learnt not to be clever smart cheating or gathering
he was always giving and never blaming
he was achiever unparalleled ~ non-achiever
he continued to be my teacher at isi
i learnt all my statistics from him at isi

empaul was another teacher who taught me that learning can be pleasure
a self discovery
i wrote once an article on problem solving essential
his method of solving visualization problem to solution in slow motion step by step
self discovery
bud to bloom

jkghosh
when i was in first year at isi
i heard about him from my 3 years seniors
he was unintelligible mute and forever trying
i came across him in my last year of degree course at isi
he was tolerable in classical probability
but he was totally hopeless in fundamentals
he was from calcutta university
where fundamentals were not taught
he was a cheat number one
he became emeritus professor in Pittsburg and isi
he died recently

ashokmaitra
he was a statistician turned fundamentalist
his approach is diligent hard work without any intuition
one can learn styles of teaching from him
one can learn how to possess a heart of love
if only you are student of his

jroy
he was supposed to be my class teacher
he taught me many techniques of optimizations without calculus
he was a very good teacher
but he bunked his classes
just like i missed my classes when i found my teacher is cheating
teaching something he did not learn

mylife
any moment individually is without any information content
sum total of my life is without any content
this cannot be saved known or used
my life is individually and entirely useless

gitasaxena
i fondly remember her
the fragrant jasmine flower
i don't know where she read from freud
.... i think that (s)he thinks that i think that ....
the root cause for relationship is verily oneself not another

yagyavalkya
know your ancestor
never ask that origin
your head shall fall off
the question is
how is one born
or reborn after death