unbelievable

I can't believe they are my words my deeds my thoughts my eyes and
me in person as is

when i read a book
when i hear an abuse
when i see a disaster
when i see a leper
when i see suffering
when i see inhumanity
when i see a barbarous act
when i see insane

it is me
none other
always me
bluffer
despicable
liar
fraud
dangerous
corrupt

I am so unimaginably bad
unbelievable but true

there goes all hope of being original genius honorable or becoming normal

it is impossible to believe there shall never be any but me not this lifetime nor any after

i remember a person and his story
he was resident at anukul ashram in giridih
yearly once he used to come for his matriculation
I do not know if he ever passed but i was told of his failures
17 times

another person i knew was my classmate at puc
that was his second time
 I visited him after first year bstat
he was again doing puc from another college
he used to stay with his uncle
after bstat I visited shillong
i looked him up at his uncle's place
he was doing engineering then finally passed the hurdle of puc

but for me perseverance would not lead to any discovery of another soul but i shall meet many many duplicates of me
my karmaphal
i cannot ever be inferior or superior any ever any time

hoax