tree of life
I bought two pendants and matching chain for them too.
I have the fascination for buddha statue but not pendants or necklaces. i used wear them and buy them regularly when i was not married.
The significance of tree of life is for different reason.
Couple of years back i saw them in their standing statue incarnation at a jem show. they were costing above $30 and I was reluctant to spend the amount.
However now it has different significance for me now. it depicts my concept of life at various stages of my life.
my root as always is unassuming and silent.
even within a day i take my stance and prefer to assume and thus expecting depending on what I assume. I also burdened with lot of discomfort for my assumption. I also look forward to deliverance from discomfort and relief. Things have changed about 40 years back when I promised myself not to mislead me in believing that there is some entity not me who is creator of my world and represented by a place of worship.
I formally got rid of that belief and do not visit such places with any kind of offering but general curiosity about the place as a source divine manifestation in my world. I do not approach or visit such places with need for fulfillment.
at every branch of the travel in my life I assumed some thing and branched. today I do not like physically travel in time and change my coordinate and belief. But loosen my belief as well as coordinate. I do no longer belong. I am being helped in every moment to recover my position in my world. I know for sure no matter what has no option but anything but me. furthermore it is what it is as long as i believe so.
it is one hundred percentage manufactured by me and do not exist.
i silently go into sleep when neither my world or me exist.
as son as i get up i search to recollect what i was. it takes several minutes to come back to life with my coordinates and urgency. What are my priorities? What I need accomplishing? can I do that?
most important is that my condition as evaluated by me is not important. I am not assuming even after 100 similar happenings. idiot, hopeless.
the fact that i still have sanity despite being battle torn warrior of 68 years plus many life times in this illusion - is grace of unassuming me over assumption of me - positive or negative as per my opinion
I have the fascination for buddha statue but not pendants or necklaces. i used wear them and buy them regularly when i was not married.
The significance of tree of life is for different reason.
Couple of years back i saw them in their standing statue incarnation at a jem show. they were costing above $30 and I was reluctant to spend the amount.
However now it has different significance for me now. it depicts my concept of life at various stages of my life.
my root as always is unassuming and silent.
even within a day i take my stance and prefer to assume and thus expecting depending on what I assume. I also burdened with lot of discomfort for my assumption. I also look forward to deliverance from discomfort and relief. Things have changed about 40 years back when I promised myself not to mislead me in believing that there is some entity not me who is creator of my world and represented by a place of worship.
I formally got rid of that belief and do not visit such places with any kind of offering but general curiosity about the place as a source divine manifestation in my world. I do not approach or visit such places with need for fulfillment.
at every branch of the travel in my life I assumed some thing and branched. today I do not like physically travel in time and change my coordinate and belief. But loosen my belief as well as coordinate. I do no longer belong. I am being helped in every moment to recover my position in my world. I know for sure no matter what has no option but anything but me. furthermore it is what it is as long as i believe so.
it is one hundred percentage manufactured by me and do not exist.
i silently go into sleep when neither my world or me exist.
as son as i get up i search to recollect what i was. it takes several minutes to come back to life with my coordinates and urgency. What are my priorities? What I need accomplishing? can I do that?
most important is that my condition as evaluated by me is not important. I am not assuming even after 100 similar happenings. idiot, hopeless.
the fact that i still have sanity despite being battle torn warrior of 68 years plus many life times in this illusion - is grace of unassuming me over assumption of me - positive or negative as per my opinion
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