silent

the impending death report finally delivered to me by Ohio health lab personally at 8 PM one evening a week back

i was called to doctors office what to expect - my future

it is bleak very bleak

my bones are going to crumble and perhaps crumbling
my blood sugar is 568+
i shall go blind
i shall have heart attack
i shall be confused
i have to be tested for bone crumbling and my thyroids to be removed in order me to survive
presently i am to inject 15 measure insulin everyday
i asked how long
i was told for the lifetime

i was asked to take some more tests and come back next day
I cancelled my visit and another appointment made for 2nd january earlier
i picked up my medicine
informed doctors office i am going to study my sugar for a few days before taking insulin
i told him i am hypersensitive about consuming any medicine
truly i do not like to cure myself via medicine
i was asked to take 5 measure of insulin

i changed my diet
my favorit is rice lentils potato boiled with ghee

i got a letter by post from my doctor about my dire condition that my average sugar 378 and my hemoglobin is 14
I am taking measure of my blood sugar last 4 days they are ranging between 191 and 300
i am taking insulin 5 measure two days
I took 7 measure today

can i defend myself against my death
can i prevent anything from happening in my world except watch
can i stop watching stop listening stop feeling stop thinking stop doing



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