physician

all is me
i cannot make any other hypothesis
if i do it is surely wrong
however i do make wrong hypothesis
there is no way to find out about my wrong hypotheses
unless I am able to see all as they are
even the cleaning up process

I am incorrect invariable always

I have been without appetite for long time and was losing weight 1 or more pounds every month for last 2 to 3 years
I have twice in the past started cooking my food
recently I have been gaining weight perhaps 1 or more pounds ever month
however my discomfort did not pass away

I visited a physician to find out
he made series of tests about 10 15 of them
i told him that i am under no medication for last 50 years

i apparently have very high sugar and i must be treated immediately
my concern is always my independence
i was told this revelation over phone at night
my family members listened to the conversation

next morning doctors assistant called me
i was reluctant
if medications are required I may be prescribed and i shall pick them from drug store
i went met the doctor late afternoon
he told me that he is going to some more tests about my bones thyroids etc. and also made one more test
i was prescribed insulin
doctor is indivisibly me

last two three days i tried to find out about my sugar in blood about 6 to 8 times a day
I changed my food habits
i am fond of rice potatoes and lentils and non vegetarian foods
I dropped the first two and asked to avoid bread etc.

I found out my average is about 300+
my prescribed dose was revised by the doctor
i informed doctor about my absolute reluctance against medicine
he revised the dose to one third
this morning I took my first daily dose
I shall be watching for three days
how healthy
i am

it is so easy to control disease
operate
take some medicine
but what about my disease of expectations
what medicine should i take
meditation for 50 years did not yield any result
who would treat me

not that i do not know the medicine
i can not take it now

observe silence