hurt

i am so much hurt that my sadness is permanent and it isolates me from talking to anyone ever

I cannot distribute unhappiness when everyone in my world has the right to happy

from now on I would live even i am public mute

i cannot open my lips

sadness failure shall pour out

i cannot even give money to make people happy

i have reached the limit of not earning any more and I have to survive with the same body growing old and soon give up being able to do its function

in search of happiness
my family too disintegrating
leaving me to live with my loneliness
without hope rest of my life
I shall never see happiness
as i had known

never again glimpse of happiness is the permanent happiness
i dreamed all my life and got it today
i feel sick sad and empty
with the divine promise
i shall never see happiness in my life again
death and disappearance of my romance with my world
end of affair 

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