Evaluation

Do I enjoy my stay in Terra. No explanation i don't.
I hate listening.
If I am fortunate not to get up. I have no regrets.
The person if at all I miss, it is Cole. We converse string together. He is the only person in my world tries to entertain me with whatever limited access he has.
In other words he loves me. It is pure giving and not seeking.
Sometimes my floor is sticky. I have to clean with mop and pine oil. Every day rub me with oil to remove any glue I may have to my world. When I left isi i got those i liked to live with me. I took lot of effort to bring them over.
Now I can't even imagine doing the same no matter population i end up. I really do not like companions.
Silence is voluminous words. My silence is in particular all the words i write here.
Two days back joya asked me go to chinese shop saying she is calling for dinner about 16 adults. I am in pressure. I cook my own food and eat. I do not talk. I have nothing to say what so ever. Though I don't like internet toymakers nor politicians. What have I to relate.
I don't like to say I am miserable if my after life becomes the same.
I don't like to say I am happy and I made to stay when I am ready to go tonight.
Last night I looked up my books in my room. I could not even pick one up for reading me to sleep.

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