home

Under the forever open cloudless sky floating in the bottomless transparent ocean under me, surrounded by invisible horizon alone ~ I am denied storage of any word sound or meaning anywhere not even in my cranium. 

Not even this.

I am silent by my own resolution and have no use of words sound symbol image ever or to recall ... I am needless whole without ....

I me my ... wishes .... words ... meanings ... all unsupportable ... invalid ... False

None and nothing is stoppable erasable expectable desirable preventable modifiable touchable storable repeatable forgettable nameable .... wordless ....  soundless .... imageless ...

home is empty no words no knowledge no intelligence no sense no memory no entity no perceptible no me no nothing ~ eternal

Can I leave home in search for home? Can I be curious?

My tune my magic mystic spell travels far and wide everywhere none and nothing is exempted ~ all is my home all is me all is bliss divine and divinity without parallel

I am solely responsible for my home my every thoughts my every deeds every happenings every perceptions and none and nothing else

I am guilty - one only one - none to share - I cannot hide ~ I bear burden of guilt and punishment even if that be unbearable and my vow of silence until my absence - never quitting. I cannot quit. Impossible. I am one and only cause for what I am. 

I am the result of my deeds. I cannot escape my suffering even for a moment definitely at this moment. Impossible. I am committed to my silence until I am absent.

I must forgive and forget all ~ I have no alternative ~ I am the reason - one and only one. I have no place to hide. I am all.

I accept my suffering as is ~ no matter how big I am ~ how permanent I am,

I receive with all my faculties in silence. no alternative